11324, backwards groove: a history of break ups and break dow Posted by paperdollpoet, Fri Aug-06-04 05:52 AM
backwards groove: a history of break ups and break downs
i.
no jelly in my butter this morning i finally ran out and now i can eat breakfast without thinking of how you always leave/left grape residue lingering for me to find and fuss about small pieces of imperfection the sticky sweet memories that spread sparsely over the last two pieces of bread the left/over loaf you left without the tie on so the edges have harden like shields but the middle still soaks up this mixture that you left me with and i can't even complain anymore because i finally ran out.
ii. this morning my bed wasn't as cold as it usta be my fingers found showers in my spring without raincoats to hide underneath
iii. yesterday i found myself hidden in several boxes unlabeled i found myself in 7 years of broken mirror pieces unswept i was loose hair scattered on the bathroom floor in corners gathered and twisted in old rubber bands stuck in the drains i was the dust that floated when i opened the blinds i was finding myself where you left me when you left me when i was the background when i was the home you moved into and made a house of when i was cold sheets that wrinkled like sides of mouths with frowns left unfixed i was a lost remote battery underneath the couch waiting to be found but just replaced i was but yesterday i found myself and today i have a lot of cleaning to do.
iv.
i've got writer's block and you're still in the neighborhood of my thoughts and i wld ask you to make me write again but i ain't right to start with so please pause before you say my name so i can remind myself why i stopped writing about you don't make me write about you again cause it made me hate poetry made me hate word play cause all i did was hide your name in similes and smiles at the inside jokes that i was playing on myself playing myself i had double roles trying to split myself in two for you trying to live two lifetimes with doubles i's so when i said i need you and i need him i wldn't see a lie and i cld cross the line in love like double dutch but i've never been one of those girls with quick feet so i wld just always fall in love
v. i like the way I smile the way my eyes dance to the music of my laughter and just when I thought I had forgotten my song you left me standing in the middle of the dance floor thank you, cause I needed to learn to dance alone
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