the work i've been posting up here has been part of something i'd like to eventually get published. with "goodbye for good," and some final editing on everything, it was finished. take a look through and see what you think. any kind of input is great. i need all i can get. enjoy! :)

mute

It’s about there and where I was last year.
It’s about the ex girlfriend. How I hated, missed, and still loved her.
It’s about moving into my apartment and sweating up three flights of stairs.
It’s about meeting Tim and rarely seeing the real him again.
It’s about accidentally breaking Geri’s “toy” and laughing about it still.
It’s about Andrew being a stripper.
It’s about having a bowl of cereal on the balcony on the first day of classes.
Its about never doing it again.
It’s about getting back with Lauren and feeling guilty for it.
It’s about September eleventh, being numb, and still not understanding.
It’s about dislocating my shoulder on the walk home from the bar.
It’s about getting my first real piercing, and then many more.
It’s about a Haunted Galaxy, Halloween, and dressing up.
It’s about cheating on my girlfriend, never telling, and feeling guilty again.
It’s about going home for the holidays and wishing I’d stayed longer.
It’s about missing my parents.
It’s about cheating on her again and not feeling as bad that time.
It’s about the dumbest New Year’s ever, wishing I was somewhere else.
It’s about letting a friend down and not being able to face him since.
It’s about the next semester, thinking it was a new day.
It’s about nothing changing at all.
It’s about discovering I was a writer and learning how to do it.
It’s about still figuring it out.
It’s about using repetition.
It’s about using repetition.
It’s about being able to make a joke.
It’s about Nicole Blackman reading a poem and making me cry.
It’s about love, sex, and politics, just like every other poem.
It’s about being there when someone needed me, not just because I still loved her.
It’s about being dumped again and being alone for the first time in four years.
It’s about the summer….or what I remember of it.
It’s about driving to Louisville to find that something had changed.
It’s about figuring out I was two steps away from an eating disorder.
It’s about being evicted and hoping it wasn't just my fault.
It’s about my new house, new roommates, new life.
It’s about missing the old ones.
It’s about being so homesick it hurts.
It’s about my DUI and spending a night in jail.
It’s about knowing I’ll make it through squeaky-clean.
It’s about realizing I’m an addict and deciding to get on the wagon.
It’s about how hard it really is.
It’s about making myself say goodbye to the love I wish I had.
It’s about here, and where I’ll go now.