18965, Swallowed woman Posted by guerilla_love, Mon Aug-07-06 04:20 PM
This is for the old folks who I've been missing and haven't visitted in ages. How are you? How've you been? What have I missed? I'm enjoying reading your words again. Rediscovering everybody. This is the only thing I've written in 2006 that I haven't edited until there was nothing left.
Swallowed Woman
I am not a feminist But I do have one that sits under my ear And she is one judgemental bitch She tells me stories About me when I was young and I had a voice and it was loud About me when I was a beast who couldn't be tamed About me reading poetry in a crowd and How I fucked a woman more than once
She remembers when the dr said I'll give you these morning after pills, but You have to protect yourself because Protecting yourself is the only way to ensure your freedom and self protection is a right that many women fought hard to achieve and Young woman, you can't come back here for these pills again It is your RIGHT and your RESPONSIBILITY to make sure that your wild nights don't grow into wildly needing babies and he predicted it
one year later my wildly growing fetus started changing my plans and flipping in belly water born to be my redefinition stripped me of my labels and named me mother taught me how to run on pure necessity even on sleepless nights when I woke up with nothing left to offer but "mommy" mommy needs sleep, mommy needs to eat something, mommy's nipples hurt taught me how sometimes it's more important to gurgle and tickle and just be together than to just be on time for once time has stopped and my self is being built quietly in the background while I move nimbly among necessities and have to's and renegotiations my inner poet is lost inside the pockets of my diaper bag, and my feminist is stuck on top of my shoulder whispering to me that I am the mom of girls and I need to remember what it is to be a woman in order to teach my girls how to be the woman that I used to be before I lost my feminism and gained my family Because I've learned to make peace with a peaceful woman that just isn't me I've learned to make peace with my necessities and my silence and my silent necessities But I cannot raise strong women unless I can remember how to be one
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