"I read 3rd I's MySpace blog and the message was there:

"i continue to be a sheep...to follow a voice that has been going dim over the last couple of months...i don't think God talks to me anymore...i want my happiness without losing my family...or my God. i want to love him openly and not shrouded in secret. i want to write poetry again...but i don't want the depression that goes along with it.
i dulled my senses....
are we equals? do we love the same? are you happy in the life u lead? are you living your dream? doing what you want in life? or are u barely making it. is your life a series of days that bleed into nights? i'm lost...i'm in a familar land of confusion that i have sought to escape from only to find myself on another path in the same land.
one day...after i'm gone...you'll realize that i never truly lived my own life...what will you feel? will it inspire you?"

She had made her decision weeks ago...