Shit that make u say.."I did that crazy shit but i aint really CRAZY CRAZY".... nigga u crazy.

Once not too too long ago the girl i was goin wit at the time and i were on a drive bout 25 mins from where we both resided(same city, different rests). She said somethin bout me not doing enuff to show her i l**e her or somebullshit. Nigga we was just going to eat how we get to this convo. Anyway she got to arguing bout lil shit. She said i aint go to the club with her enuff yada yada man fuck that i told her to stop the ride.

i got out and walked. Now i was a good 30 miles from home. No cell. Night time and my pride was in full effect.

It took me a good 2 hours to get home.

i might as well signed up for the good 10k racewalk man i got home all sweaty and my roommate had already heard the story cause she called him and told him to go "pick yo boy up on the street somewhere".

Nigga i was so hot at that girl i was ready to get my Assault and Battry on.

But i chilled.

it's mo to this story but i'll keep it cliffnotes'd

i was with my homeboy once and this dude was suppose 2 be taking me to the gym, but "man i gotta make some stops"...this cat rode around to TWO places that his girl was suppose to be to make sure she was there...i mean dude had this look in his eye that i cant even describe.

if relationships make mofoes do that shit, i dont wanna be in anymore...

you're a grown ass man, you don't GO with people when you're grown.


how come your boys didn't come scoop you?



kev

1. Go with will never die

2. I aint stop at no payphone.

...at the bar on some "pssst, here"

I just said one day on her couch.."Will u go with me?"

talking shit about one of my homegirls...

doing it just to get me heated and shit cuz she knew i was hooked on the tang....

so to spite her i just walked out got in my car and left...drove around...came back after 20 mins..

she had called her mom to pick her up...

a nigga rushed home to call and i heard the worst.


<-----Sunshine...

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...preserving my sexy!!!

"if love is a place ama go again,
at least now, now i know to go within..."-Com'Sense

come back.

He may still be there for all I know.

Me the ex and my step son had the same winter coat.. thick leather heavy thing. We referred to them as momma, poppa and baby bear.

We also took pictures together...in matching outfits. Black jeans Iverson sneaks *damn we had matching sneakers* and jean shirts with black tank tops under the shirts.

I feel like a noodle.

my fiance and i were going out and i always wear my kangol and she decides she wants to were another on to match her shirt. my hat got left on the bed with the quickness!


kev

nothin like that but there were many times when I'd forego lunch or use my last last to get him somethin to eat for lunch.


you don't hear me...


LAST....LAST.

there are other things but I'm too ashamed to admit'em.
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RIP ODB ;(
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well we see in Sci Fi's post i drove 200 miles for a 2 hr visit.

Well.

i've put nickles and dimes and pennies in the tank to go see whachamacallit be4.

which usually resulted in a parking ticket (for parking in the teacher's lot) and put me in after school detention.
(f*ckin in the mornin)

ok, that's it - the rest is just too ridiculous.
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One of my exes, I gave him my last 5 on a Friday, the only money I had AND I was still in school so you know I was broke. Found out that following Monday that he had been cheating on me throughout the month and a half we were together. I felt like the only dickhead.

My last ex, I paid 228 bucks outta my pocket to get his cell phone reconnected so he could keep in closer contact with his family since 2 family members had died within 5 weeks of each other.

Not even 2 months pass before I caught him talking to his ex-girl behind my back. AND my stepfather had just died so he caught hell for that one but I still feel dumb to this day for doing that.

your a sweetie.

they suck big time
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But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common hum

ery once in a while when he was in a bind, i found myself paying his phone bill...

at least 80 each time...

and the mug aint even get me shit for valentines, bday nor christmas...

:(

Like... I can't eat or get to work LAST.

for me, it's doing something like that then realizing the other person would NOT have done the same for you. That's the embarassing part. That's life though.
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lol

that

& yeah

that

lmao

sorry, 8th grade math came back to haunt me, niggas cant even RUN 15 mph for 2 hours straight

I know it took me and the rest of the folks like 4 hours to walk 8 miles during the AIDS walk.

Must have been some bears chasing Mr. Adams or something

No..really...I laughed out loud.

"Money and blood don't mix. Like two dicks and no bitch, you'll find yourself in serious shit." - Notorious B.I.G.

obviously it took me longer than 2 hours.

can i look like a semi-herb at least or do yall wanna know it AWL.

fuck it why not since we spillin.

it took me 2 hours to get pulled over by a cop that knew me thew a friend of a friend. he gave me a ride to the crib whilst laffing at me bout the whole situation.

Beautiful from the Chappelle show

And some crazy banjo music playing while he's getting chased

but if this situation that i am currently in ever fails i will plenty to talk about. an example of what i will talk about if we break up is the fact that i paid the deposite on their current apt.

and would FIGHT over who had the shit first (i did).

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lol. nah it was bball

....like he would drop *me* off and pick me up later. and there were other things that i really AM ashamed to admit.

fortunately, i got all my stupidity out in THAT relationship.

and while i was at work
this nigga had his baby's mother all in my car
a baby i didn't know he had
i really got mad when i found out the bitch stole my Erykah Badu Live
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promote black love

someone from next door came in here and said "Did u just get the joke i sent u?"

naw.

wont get into the details...streets is watching

so i could go down for bout 1.5hrs to get some cut up and loan her money... did i mention i was living in south jersey at the time and had to catch the bus at 5am the next morning.

my behavior was on wtf mode...

cooked for this nigga
did the nigga hair (naked sometimes)
paid the nigga phone bill
hung out with the nigga bum ass friends
made the nigga apple pie on vday and his ass aint even show up
and...

*hangs head in shame*
in certain ways i gave him permission to cheat on me...

and countless other bullshit i did that i'm almost too embarrassed to admit to myself...

inbox
email
i'm calling
i l**e u.

second of all, NEVER AGAIN!

u're right.

but still if they sellin bmw's for 15 dollas u think i aint gon take one?

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RIP ODB ;(
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.

did the nigga hair (naked sometimes)

Another reason I should of kept my hair.

>did the nigga hair (naked sometimes)
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*TWINNING*

Did you say....*ahem*.......You did his hair Naked?????

Damn Slim, you like one step away from Wifeyville.
I'm finna keep my eye on you. *adjusts wifey sniper scope*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhA

;)
I might fuck around and take the boffaya'll on some
Concubine type steez. LOL...

>
>*hangs head in shame*
>in certain ways i gave him permission to cheat on me...

cause i felt guilty for not giving him none

i told her about it years later and shes like "youre a dumbass, i would have never found out"

btw, either you were less than 30 miles away or it took more than 2 hours. the guy who won the marathon this year did it in over 2 hours.

short version she swung and missed I didn't. It stopped there and never did again. I still feel bad about it to this day.

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I was then that's not even the worse part of my history.

how did she react?

we were into it about some bs I forget what it was about doesn't matter anyway. She said some things, I said some things back b/c I'm a professional asshole. She swung on me and I dodge and countered w/ an open hand (mostly reflex) she cried, I cried b/c things are never supposed to get that far w/ people you care about It never happened again, nine years later we still together.

remember when afrobongo talked about hitting his girl. Man everyone was heated as hell for 3 days then they act like nothing happened.

ITS FRIDAY YALL! THIS IS WHAT IM TALKIN ABOUT!
lets get it poppin.

them bitches can say what they wanna say

any one who'd take a position against what u posted would have to be a bitch, Slapper???

She watched her mother fight. The cycle ends here!

swingin at the air
cryin & then gettin pussy???

Cost more than I was making at the time.

She broke up with me three days later.

At least she bought me a Playstation for Christmas to keep me company.
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She had been asking me to give her black eye to prove my love or something

SO on Valentines day I finally break down and agree to do it.

I must have punched her 3 or 4 times but it just wouldn't bruise up

God I miss her

.

I haven't dated her, but this chick probably hang out at the same club or something

it's not

YOU weren't there ?

(Unless your name is E. Reece in which case you WERE there but it still happened)

Either way it still happened

what to do, what to DOOOO???

nm

You and Morpheme are seriously underestimating how crazy a woman can be.

baby you shoulda told her that the abusive days were ovaar.
you shoulda sat her down, sayin, i knew what you went thru
as a child was rough, but i aint gone beats ya like yo uncle,
your brother, and yo daddy did. she caught up in some mind shit dude. she think she hahpo.

Like I said the girl was a bit off (She has a chemical imbalance)

And her Dad and Brother didn't abuse her, they're good folk. Some OTHER dudes did but that's besides the point.

Anyhow like I said I din't get the job done but she was happy enough that I gave it the old college try

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nm

What was I supposed to do

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agaaaain (c) me via babygirl

I thought it was some elaborate plot, her being a caucasoid(obviously) and all.

Me being the yonug educated brotha I am Soon as I punch her, she gets a bruise and runs to the cops and BAM a whole generation of a black family goes down the drain.

Plus it would have been weird walking down the street, holding hands while she has a giant knot on her face

lol

i threw a phone thru a wall once

das all

& some other crazy shit, i gotta temper

...

i recently got that shit from netfix.

I had to buy both seasons and the final episode.

Only tv series I watch on the regular.

but i kept the playstation when he moved out. =P

but yeah, i did the phone bill, the this that and the other when he was unemployed. i don't really regret it; i saw that being a very long-term deal, like i would have married him type, and in that sort of relationship you take care of one another. and oh how that man could cook and clean. and then some. ;) it was a miscalculation on my part- the shame comes in when i came to understand exactly what i'd been funding- but i think the bigger problem with this in any relationship is that at some point it is going to breed resentment.

quoth the hyde, nevermore. you bitches better have your own.

yeah

she was the reason i firdt went to college in Montpellier




andyo
wewerenttogether
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*TWINNING*

now that I think about it.

Everything else was just par for the course.

everyyybody hurts






soooooooometiiiiiiiiiiimes

Basically, the chick I was seeing felt like unless there wasn't 24-7 drama then it must not be love. She set out to make me jealous and succeeded...

There was a cat on campus that I knew liked her. She would let him hang around her, just to piss me off. One night, after we had one of our many fights, she called me to tell me she was coming by to give me something. She shows up, I can't even remember what the bullshit was she had to give me, but she insists on talking to me on the stoop and not coming in. She kept looking back at a car parked down the street.

"My ride is waiting for me."

"Who's that?"

"Don't worry about it..."

"Is it __________?" (not protecting him, I just don't remember his name)

"Yes"

I got pissed, and started walking toward the car. She screams bloody murder into the house, for my roomates to come get me. My roomates come out and try to calm me down and I offer to give them some of the beating I planned to inflict on dude. My roomates, tired of witnessing the drama between me a old girl, just said, "Man, fuck this..." and walked back into the crib.

By this time my girl had made it to the car and told dude to drive off, she was going to stay with me. I'm guessing he did the old, "are you sure? He seems violent," but he left.

End of story my girl comes in, we go to my room and make hot, sweaty, monkey love. The next morning, my roomies are giving me the gasface.

find yo self in that position again, call Fo Oh Fo Sem Nine Two Eigh Fih Eigh Three, and ask Abby how you should proceed.

Don't ever ever ever get played like this again.

find yo self in that position again, call Fo Oh Fo Sem Nine Two Eigh Fih Eigh Three, and ask Abby how you should proceed.

Don't ever ever ever get played like this again.

That was many moons ago. That type of drama is WAAAAY behind me.

Like that.


Live like Ali(r.a)
Die like Hussain(r.a)

if I were willing to put myself on blast like that? C'mon, Stace.


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Everyone down like brothers
Even white muthafuckas
-- Witchdoctor "Heaven Comin'"

Same chick...I knew she had mono and when she was home on leave I made out with her for like ten minutes before smashing. My exact words were, "Will you give me your mono?"

"Money and blood don't mix. Like two dicks and no bitch, you'll find yourself in serious shit." - Notorious B.I.G.

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but, dontchu fret none, hun ... the universe will pay em back for u, til then ...*holding up Black power fist*.... go forth & beat the shit outta em, IGYB. word.~Swigga



But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common hum

.

Live like Ali(r.a)
Die like Hussain(r.a)

winner

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my Detroit Lions avatar is back from its suspension.

that aint nothing to be ashamed of

a favor for a favor and if she won't return it....man...

and slimy and i'm squeamish like that
and no she ain't heady moe me up :(

you like it. you eat it.
you just insulted she aint play harmonica

lol

suuuuuurre she would have

might be the first of many more meetings or the last time you see the office.


kev

I'm not worthy.

When I was married to my wife I cheated on her with my secretary. I felt guilty so I bought my wife the state of Rhode Island and a Bently.

I took a charge for the brotha.

Acquitted ... but damn, I still took the charge.

.

that word plus many other profanities were used when I called Moms to come bail me out.

No, seriously, why did you do that?

Love.
Fear.
Love.
Stupidity.
Love.
Shock.

come again?

ass something terrible. I didn't know then why, just know it happened in front of my house and the chick was damn near dead.

He called me to come home said something bad happened. I come home, see the chick and basically freak out because I think she is dead. I go to get the phone to call 911 and hes like baby, before the man gets here, we need to talk. I said ok ... he told me he gets arrested, he gets an habitual offenders charge (which can add 5+ years on top of the sentence) he said you gotta help me outta this.

Love is a powerful thing. I told him to leave, to go to his moms house and get cleaned up. I tried to help the girl out ... perform 1st aid and all. In the process I got bloodied up. The law/ambulance came ... I got arrested.

The female was at my house because she had come there to let me know she was pregnant by my man, and had been sleeping with him for like the last year or so (he and I had been together almost 3 years).

I was initially charged with a plethora of charges, all but one was eventually dropped and I went to trial on aggravated malicious wounding. The chick testified that she didn't think it was me that beat her down ... because she doesn't remember talking to me or seeing me. She was never asked who she thought it was, and for what I can tell never offered it up.

BTW ... the baby was ok ... the baby wasn't his (DNA test) ... needless to say, our relationship didn't survive (for many reasons).

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.

bailed me out. Was no way he could have anyway ... my bail was very high.

I think all he did was call a lawyer ...

there's so much i want to say i nearly choked to death swallowing my words.

on my account.

That shit was a valuable lesson. Expensive, but valuable.

I was ashamed I was with the man for so long ... not that I had his back.

what i wanna know, is if he ended up getting charged & arraigned.

i didnt see that anywhere.

myself dealing with that than anything ...

That happened almost 10 years ago ... and I have done a lot of growing up since then.

No, he was never charged for it all. He's in prison now for murder. I don't know the details, but was told that he killed his daughter's mother, don't know how true that is.

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But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common hum

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First and most important...that dude NEEDS to be under the jail if he beat her ass like that. If he was facing a habitual offender charge then obviously this wasn't the first foul shit he's done.

Number two...hell no number two...his ass should be locked up...and she was pregnant? What type of cowardly shit is that?

I didn't know until it was all over what happened. If I was gonna ride the whole thing out, I didn't want to know anything. Thankfully, the baby was ok - and wasn't his.

Once it was over he told me the whole story ... even had the nerve to cry when he told me. I was disgusted. I got up - told him I was going to my moms house and I wanted him out by the time I got home. My brother went over there like 4 hours later and changed the locks and moved in.

Someone as loyal as you DEF deserves better.

girl, you take the cake. seriously.

i couldn't. nope. me? prison? for a dude? no, can't see it.
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i thought that he was all wrong. that i couldn't be enough and he certainly couldn't be either. i would push and pull, beg and plead for serenity and balance then one day,

girl, you take the cake. seriously.

i couldn't. nope. me? prison? for a dude? no, can't see it.
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i thought that he was all wrong. that i couldn't be enough and he certainly couldn't be either. i would push and pull, beg and plead for serenity and balance then one day,

at a fast food restaurant
in order to earn quick cash so i could see him
because i thought he was goin off the deep end

& i was FAR frum still bein in high school

that wouldn't have been a problem if i wasn't expecting some kinda thanks in return (cuz i adore his kids)
but i was
and um...we weren't really together : (((

>show her i l**e her or somebullshit.

I thought I was the only person who thought that was a curse word!




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LOL. I kid. I luh my husband. This thread is funny, sad and comforting all at the same time, though.
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to meet him at his house for sex all day.

girl

i hope u got a transfer & thanked ur driver as u unboarded

but i was up 6am when i had nowhere important to go. i laid up in his bed alllll day.

ok. i see your point.

waiting for him to get home from his night gig at the post office, lol.

shouldn't i feel slightly shamed?

nOpe

lol

Im not going into the long distances i drove/caught the bus to get stood up.

This one incident in particular where this chick stepped to me gushing. We exchanged #'s and talked for a few days. Shit was cool so we set to get up and chill. This chick lived by Midway and i got my ass on the cta to ride to her crib for her sister to come to the window like she aint here. :c\

I still went and ate just to make the trip worth while but yeah i was a bit salty. Just a little bit.

I ran into him at a party
and the nigga was getting
in my face about some shit
that happened 2 years prior.

He pointed his finger at my
chest and I slapped his hand
down. He pushed me, then I
took flight. I felt bad cause
me and the girl was still
together.

That was the beginning of the end tho.

all having to do with my last ex:
trying to hack into her email and computer
searching for her name on google, yahoo, etc multiple times
ignoring my best friends in college to talk with her on the phone at night
tryna holla at other girls and not have the guts to
driving 45 mins during rush hour on the 836 and turnpike to West Kendall from NW Miami almost every other day to spend 4 hours with her then drive back home and be up for work early the next day
driving by her house just to see her car there
telling her one day we'd be married after only being with her for 4 months


smh@me. Damn I'm too fly to be that wack

One day I drove from DE to VA for 1 class I couldn't get another absence in, then back to DE in time to make dinner before his practice ended. Yes I was hooked on the dangalang! But never again.

*guitar lick ---> french horns*

dats my sh*t.


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my Detroit Lions avatar is back from its suspension.

I think every last thing I did right or wrong....I need to take something from it.

It seems like in this thread, we're fishing for "aws" and "come here, babies". Seriously....love is fucked up and it's not fun.

And I'm fine enough to say that when I've had it, I fucked it up and sometimes, I did ok with it.

All I do now is try to do ok.

it's tough to read. i done spilt my guts far too many times on my stupid shit (and have done enough).

So I'm just not going to add to the spin cycle. Pun intended.

like an episode of "sick sad world"

Adwhizz is still "postin" tho

Ok, so this was high school.

There was this teddy bear in Victoria's Secret that my girlfriend loved so I decided I would surprise her with it for Valentine's Day.

My plan was to hop on the bus afterschool and go to the mall and pick one up and then hop on the bus back before my parents even got home.

After I bought the teddy bear (with my lunch money for the week), I hopped on the bus to go home. Because it was dark and I had never taken the bus from this direction, I got on the wrong bus. I dozed off for a little bit (I know. Even then...) when I woke up, we were in Queens (For my NYers, I live in Westbury, Long Island). I freaked out. Because not only was I in Queens, I did not have money to take the bus back. I had to BEG the bus driver to allow me to take the bus back. I wasn't crying but I know I sounded like a bitch. He finally let me on the bus (but only after he took his sweet ass time putting his bus back in service).

I got back home at 8 PM (I usually get home from school at 4 PM). I lied and told them I was at the library (luckily this was LOOONG before cell phones and before my parents bought an answering machine).

She loved the bear. All I got was a card.
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1) Waited 4 hours for him at the airport (he didnt call to tell me he missed his flight)
2) Let him and his mama lay up in my house
3) cook for him and his stankin ass friends every saturday for a semester
4) fucked him in a port-o-potty
5) bought him a chain and a piece to go w/ it
6) used plastic sandwich bags when we ran out uv condoms
and all of this for a nigga who was not really my man...
trust i wont be doing any uv that shit again

No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

"baby i we still got mad kroger bags though...tell you what. i'll double bag it. feel better?"

we were desperate and horny
as long as it catches his lil swimmers we all good

No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

u use a rubberband at the end?


eff condoms ima just saranwrap my dick from now on

Nah he just held the slack
it works, trust

No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

o LAWD no.
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i was chillin w/ him this summer in cali @ the beach (alameda if that counts as a beach)
and we was horny (hadnt seen each utha in a while)
and werent very many secluded places and too many kids around
and all of P.O.P's were nasty so i laid the towel over the seat and rode him
but he busted hellaquick
and we got in a fight
(which was pretty much our relationship--fuck and fight)


No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

damn.

it was kinda cold in there
it stunk like all hell tho
in my mind i was like...never again...


No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

A SANDWHICH BAG!

that nigga broke every last condom we had between us
and i wasnt done
and we hadn't known each other for long so going raw was out the question
fuck it, i'm nineteen and i really aint give a fuck
but aint no babies bein pushed out this pussy til i say so


No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

or did he slip the little slot under his balls to tuck it...

rubber band or sumthin'?

nigga was tearing dem shitz on purpose trying to hit raw

women need to learn how to put condoms on a nigga they damn selves

take your life & body in your own hands

i bet not 2 many people know how to put a condom on the right way yo

RE: was it zip loc nigga?
no the cheap kind u get from save-a-lot
>or did he slip the little slot under his balls to tuck it...
>
>rubber band or sumthin'?
no he held the slack

>nigga was tearing dem shitz on purpose trying to hit raw
that nigga is as equally scared of getting an std as i am of getting pregnant---either way it wasnt goin down

>women need to learn how to put condoms on a nigga they damn
>selves
>
>take your life & body in your own hands
>
>i bet not 2 many people know how to put a condom on the right
>way yo
tru tru tru

No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

....

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when you aim for perfection, you discover it's a moving target.

sheesh, he called me a nigger.
i said nothing.

and hell, even putting up with mediocrity ..
i'm so above that dude.

thats quite 'wow'.

Live like Ali(r.a)
Die like Hussain(r.a)

lol

My white dude ended up being an asshole, but he ain't never did no stupid shit like that.

A MEXICAN called you the 'n' bomb?

Damn.

I'm sooo sorry.

.

I "thought" I was SooOOoooO in love at the time. I broke up with him oneday b/c I was on my bitch mood **PMS'n** b/c I think he wouldnt go get me something to eat and I was like fuck it, you not going to get me anything to eat, if u can't do that i dont need to be with you b/c theres no telling what else you might not do for me.

Point about 2 hours later I thought about it, and I was crying and I begged his back. Now later, I should have left it right where it was. Turns out there WAS alot more shit he wouldnt do, more serious than just not going to Moe's grill.

.

and take blame or deal with someone else's needs or emotions.

or at least talk about the shit that got you walking forever to get home...


then why you in a relationship anyway?

I still do dat dumb shit.

You listen to They Won't Go When I Go. That'll tell you where I'm going - away from sorrow and hate, up to joy and laughter-Stevie Wonder

www.myspace.com/peaceshine

"music is a spiritual thing. you don't play with music. if you play with music, you will die"-Fela

we were having dinner one night and we got to arguing, right before the waitress came with the menus. We continue arguing, she comes back to ask if we're ready to order, no we sing in unison. Okay, she leaves, we're back to arguing. Another 15 or so minutes pass, she comes back.

I stop, look down at the menu and order a shit load of food. Appetizers, side stuff, main meal, drinks, dessert, everything.
He orders a normal size meal, still fuming. Waitress leaves and we get to arguing. The food comes, and we continue arguing as he picks at his food.

I get up and leave, without touching mine. He was left with the bill. I should have taken my key from him. I went to a friends house (interestingly enough, the same friend/dude that just got married and didn't effin' tell me...) When I came home, my house was trashed, and my credit cards were gone (I don't keep those joints in my wallet, I know the numbers off by heart if anything were to happen).

And you know after all this blew over, I still stayed. Love an't blind man, Love is a fucking DISEASE THAT DESTROYS LOGIC

the end

i can't bring myself to admit (on here) some of the dumb shit i did.

I can talk about it freely. I've done a lot of messed up things that I'm not proud of, but I'm glad I've learnt my lesson and can move forward.

i used to post all kindsa shit when i first started posting.
then i met some folks.
now i'm a lil tame
not that i'm ashamed
just that they don't need to know *everything

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<-----Payton in the dryer
RIP ODB ;(
http://www.myspace.com/wugambina
www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2133755326

u know
all this, all that
is fuel

when u get in that good good shit
u gon drive it forever
& that's a mighty long time

maybe cause I knew him since I was 12?? *looks around shamefully*

I know Morph, I know I should have left a long time ago.. believe me there is worse stories, worse. But you see, I left home at 17.. that nicca was like fam to me..it's weird I guess to try and justify or explain, but yes, I should have left.

I'm wiser now, better now, strong now, shit an't gonna happen again.

I've got stories though.

none of us are as removed frum our situations to look at them objectively

that's not what love causes us to do

u were where u were & u acted accordingly

i have my tales & tells & man, i could probably make somebody throw up or revoke my decency card

but u know

i've come to conclude, were the relationship to have "worked"
it wouldn't have even been regarded as crazy or dumb
or regarded at all

i own up to all i've done
all i've been
there is no shamin me w/me
no matter when i was that person or why



u skr8

"i own up to all i've done
all i've been
there is no shamin me w/me
no matter when i was that person or why"

truth.

thx

>Love
>an't blind man, Love is a fucking DISEASE THAT DESTROYS LOGIC
>
>the end
>
>

...admitting it? I don't get it.

And why are people going for the most painful parts of their shit? This is free therapy at work, people.

*continues reading*

Niggas is in pain, dog. Pain.

not how far u'll go for love
walking on the highway is insane
___________________________

promote black love

like. . . "baby when i get this check... i'm gonna give u 500 to buy shoes..."

or, "stay on the phone with me... when u get your bill ill pay it" (im still paying that bill off)

or, "my credit card got denied, can u pay?" (yea that happened more than once)

or, "come see me (he didnt have a car) and when u get here i'll fill your tank" (but of course when i got to the gas station his card didnt work AGAIN)

shame on angel... shame shame shame on me

turned them on 10 while he was asleep
unplugged them, pulled the covers back
and smacked him all over his back and naked ass

i had found a number and called the chick while he was asleep
young and crazy i was
___________________________

promote black love

i stayed with him for about 7 years after that
i stopped that shit tho...
he never put his hands on me and i didn't want him to
plus he quit me for about 2 weeks after that and i almost died
___________________________

promote black love

besides most niggas ain't goin to do shit
because of the type of shit niggas they are

SECRURITY!!!!!!!!

i'm out.

what is wrong w/me???

all this shit is funny as hell


*laughin*

the visuals, man, the visuals

her arms will be swingin' but she an't hittin'

Stacy you are hilarious

might have 2 use that 1



No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

i regret most of that stuff now
when i think about it, i was abusive
one day he was late picking me up from work
i got off at 4:30 and he got there around 5:30
his boy was in the back and it seemed like they thought it was funny that i was mad
we got to the light and i stole him right in the eye
"Motherfucker! POW!!"
downtown DC, rush hour, everybody in the crosswalk looking at us rumble
i was an idiot
i still don't take no shit tho
im too good to a nigga
___________________

promote black love

damn
i was just joking tho
the worst i did to a nigga i was pissed at was smack him and crack on how little his dick was
but beating him w/ a curling iron?
i'd be askin him to whup my ass
(not saying you, but just the type uv niggas i deal with, i almost wouldn't blame 'em... ALMOST)


No Shaboonkashae ain't my real name, but if I ain't tryna talk 2 u, then yes it is.

but if he put his hands on you for burning him with a hot comb he'd be wrong?

his mama didn't raise him like that
we broke up for a while tho
___________________________

promote black love

You listen to They Won't Go When I Go. That'll tell you where I'm going - away from sorrow and hate, up to joy and laughter-Stevie Wonder

www.myspace.com/peaceshine

"music is a spiritual thing. you don't play with music. if you play with music, you will

makes a young man put up with a lot of shit
___________________________

promote black love

i just choked back a chortle

what makes it all laughable is how worth it we thought those moments/actions were, the unflinchin depths we'd go to

this shit still made me laugh tho

Was all set to go to Tulane after undergrad. Send my deposit and everything. Had a roomie lined up. Decided to move back to NY instead with that jobless muhfucka. Then things only got worse and worse but that's another post. Ended up going to another school later but withdrew from there cuz of some shit between me and him.

In a way though, might have been kinda good. Cuz if I had gone, I'd have been just starting classes down there for my last yr and woulda been caught up in that Katrina shit fo sho.

I derailed my grad school plans for my now ex fiance. But the situation turned out great (free ride for masters program) and I know i'm getting my PhD in the next six years.

But it happens all the time, love.

NOTHING on some of the ridic. shit that other people have done/gone through...*smh, i still can't believe some of the craziness in this post...*

best of luck to you in the future with regards to your law degree...if the desire is there, it'll happen.

prolly still is a lil bit

i aint neva did no shit like any of this

the worse thing i ever did was beaten up this girl name reesie cause she said she kissed my boo and was going around telln the whole school

and he SWORE he didn't and she was lying tryin to make him look bad

but hun, we were in teh 4th grade...

come on...

my momma taught me better than the shit up in this camp..


oh well... i guess u live u learn..

some of yall had it BAD

...

it aint funny no more

some stuff I guess I can see, but summa this shit speaks directly to the sanity of the poster. Niggas catchin charges for each other?? Fuckin each other with ziplock bags?? Lettin a man call you a nigger? Yeah..summa yall just plain ole crazy and I dont think love or relationships have anything to do with it. I'm just waitin on somebody to come clean and tell the story about how they let their SO take a shit in they mouth cuz wasn't no damn bathrooms around. Fuck a relationship, summa yall need some therapy lol.

i really thought u were overreacting until i read what u spoke of
damn

do u mean wild, stupid

or

do u mean bordeline lock-up???

walked from one town to the next took him 6 hrs too.

she really made him mad.

"stay skinny, stay young, stay Hollywood, stay sellable for us. they're dealing flesh. behind the scenes can be devastating."~~~~Paul Mooney
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http://www.myspace.com/supasoulfro

decked in the eye tho

crazy shit that's been done to us
i could write a book


___________________________

promote black love

the most shameful thing I've ever done was beg for it. no like seriously beg for it. Wasn't cute at all.

whoa-oooooooooooooo-oh oh (c) johnny gill

toonniigghhtttt (a la Johnny Gill)

that was embarassing....

Live like Ali(r.a)
Die like Hussain(r.a)

from someone who was not even my man... and his ass was crazy. luckily that only lasted for 2 months

I mean it's not even gender-'pacific'.

The only reason if attempted harm was inflicted on me and I did nothing was because it didn't hurt.

if someone puts a hot comb on my naked ass/back while im sleep, all bets are off dogs.

Had it been some knives or some kind of thing that could cut, all bets are over indeed and I would beat that woman like a nigga trying to rob me.

why am i laughing at this post ?

and i'm teaching my son that too
i don't want him to go through any of the stuff his father went through w/me
i *was* lucky
and stupid

___________________________

promote black love

Ol girl came over after class, hit it...

Her friend called the cell, told her she was sleepin, SO I CREEP! YAAAAH!

Went to the friend and tapped that too.

I was nasty.




"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure."

Tracks from the forthcoming BlackBerry Album, launch date - Jan 3rd 2006 -
Just LISTEN:
http://www.soundclick.com/foundationiv

during a ridiculous fight

i failed a class freshman year 'cause i didn't give a shit about anything else but being with him

i cheated on another one and he still doesn't know :(

nm

okay i used to take the bus and the train across the city to "see" this dude a couple of times a week. i was really mean to him because i didnt want him to know i had feelings for him, but i was totally in love. sex used to really hurt between us, but i never said anything. i just gritted my teeth and bared it. we even did it raw one time, just cause he wanted to. (dont worrry I was at the clinic the following week panicing). i used to shave all of my nooty hair off just for him. i almost permed my hair (but decided he wasnt worth it).
love sucks.

it wasn't that bad, we were young at the time

he slept on the couch, I was in my room

posts like these is the reason I can't leave OKP.

please.

there are some situations where the guy def didn't deserve any type of "ease" in dealing with me after we broke up. I don't really like having a ton of adversity with a man after we break up. It's done, so let it be done.

For the most part I am a stubborn person - I'll cook, cater, all that cuteness, but once you piss me off it's a wrap on Betty Crocker. I never just came up off some money for bills or anything (most of the time it was the other way around), but there were occasions where I bought a shirt or two, let a guy drive my car, etc. on some "I think I luv him" type shit. If anything, I'd say I was ashamed for the times I should have broke up first and didn't.

I've been lied to a few times, but I will never be ashamed of MYSELF for believing in someone. Those men should take that shame on themselves for being weak morons.

he lost his job & the story was, his mom had used the phone for long distance to call fam a right before this happened.

she was an older lady & she would need to have her phone on.

weeeelllll, later on, i found out that his ass went to the village and bought fucking comics! it was all a lie. man, i was young and very broke at the time (think living on ramen and gray's papaya for months broke), and i really sacrificed to to help out. i wanted to strangle that bitch!

greedy muthafucka. i used to go to the comic book shop with him and allow myself to get into his world, even got him gift certificates for the shop, on his birthday, christmas, etc. all the time.


i don't know if i ever want another comic geek boyfriend. i am attracted to them, but as i said before, they are very self absorbed!




Dis...Generation 8 Track

aim: SerotoninSlurpee


~ i love you, cocoateddybear. ~
~ she's looking down at us, pointin' & laffin'. ~

You may just have met the wrong ones.

halllllfffway. lol.

i still have much love for comic book geeks. i mean, i almost married one!

one day, i'm going back to that shop and just look around, and immerse myself in all the atmosphere.











Dis...Generation 8 Track

aim: SerotoninSlurpee


~ i love you, cocoateddybear. ~
~ she's looking down at us, pointin' & laffin'. ~

fixed up his resume
cooked him dinner
let him stay rent free for two months
encouraged him to go back to school and got him all the info

sorry muthafukka aint do shit

drove 55 miles to see him for 20 minutes on a regular basis
learned how to cook for him
rolled blunts and i dont even smoke
stop drinking and cursing because he didn't think it was "ladylike"
cut off all my friends
MADD stupid shit....i was young
he was destructive

for it to open so I could buy plantain to cook her dinner.

In my defence though, she made up for it

I spent $80 on roses between the flowers and delivery costs for my very first online long distance boo (no she wasnt from okp)

I helped out a fair amount towards an exes tuition, less than a G, less than 7 bills, but it's still the principle. i was on some together forever, for our future shit. that went belly up. small shit like food, metrocards, and help on her cell phone bill accumulated over time. if i had it we were going 2/$89.99 on his/her new balances (no they didnt match)

paid for him to move to another state. bought him a bunch of shit for his new place too. i really did it out of kindness but in retrospect that was really dumb of me.

i suppose everything happens for a reason tho.
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i thought that he was all wrong. that i couldn't be enough and he certainly couldn't be either. i would push and pull, beg and plead for serenity and balance then one day,

__________________________
www.okayplayer.com/guidelines

..and miles to go before i sleep... (c) frost

btw eureka, I woulda beat you half to death, pressed criminal charges and filed a civil suit, damn girl!

I let my first boyfriend insult me into changing my personality

I let me now ex-fiance derail my career plans.

But to God be the glory, HE made the bad for the good.