i was at the cafeteria on campus
a friend called from new york, assuming i'd heard, and he was calling to see how i was holding up
i ended up bawling in the cafeteria
and (going to the bathroom when i got too loud)
i still find myself crying at random moments
like yesterday when i was at the grocery store
seems like something triggered this, dont even know what
the first thing i think about when i get up in the morning
is damn.
this really happened.
how?