as we all know/remember Tichana aka "Nikki"/"3rd i" took her life this time last year on August 21st 2006.
http://www.myspace.com/3rd_i

A year later... it still hurts like hell... and we all miss her.
But at least she has finally found peace.

Rest in peace boo.... luv & miss ya.

Any one have any memories or words to share?

Is there any one here dealing with their own issues or problems that need someone to talk to or for advice to avoid following in Nikki's foot steps?

If anyone is considering suicide,PLEASE get help! Pick up the phone and call a friend, call a family member, call 911 or 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) or go to the website http://www.hopeline.com

Inbox ME! Or ask me for my number and I'll gladly give it to ya.

And for anyone dealing with those type feelings.... I know that every day is a struggle... but dont stop fighting!!!

One.....

♋~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~♋
☯ Your own inner consciousness is the true Mosque where all should worship... ☯

damn yo.

damn. I hope she's at peace.

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"Astroglide is like Jesus: it makes a way out of no way!" - two okps who shall remain nameless, in order to protect the innocent.


I'm so famous.(c) Joi
www.myspace.com/heavenleiblumoon

and her mentioning that one of her dreams was to lay down at the foot of a tree in a rain forest and just 'feel' the enormity of being there. maybe she'll make her way there in her own way.

peace and well-wishes to 3rd-i

n/m

never happened though.

Uh...I didn't know they had black people in "The Clockwork Orange"?!?

Anyway....me and my droogs are headed down to the milkbar.

Care to join us?

lol why'd you make me laugh in this post?

Anyway, where's milkbar? never heard of it. i'm off to bed in any case. Have fun though :)

those were all references to the slang Alex (the lead protagonist) and his clan spoke.

not the retrospect...just the knowledge of where i was at last year when I found out.

Ah well...

Ya still loved, Nik. ya still loved.

D

and I figured if I didnt then someone else would make it. So figured I would try to make it something positive.

May she RIP

.

but i remember the post last year. Had me wondering what the hell.
saw this one and knew exactly who was being spoken of.

PEACE in your rest!



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"...stereotypes of a black male misunderstood..."

damn...it doesn't seem like a year already....

I pray her SOUL is at PEACE.....

she was a very unique and creative soul... RIP lady...


www.myspace.com/sankofamusic

I trust you to kill me.

DROkayplayer: Giving you good puff since May '05

>A year later... it still hurts like hell... and we all miss
>her.
>But at least she has finally found peace.
>
>Rest in peace boo.... luv & miss ya.

i just sent an inbox to her myspace account a couple of weeks ago....i know noone will see it, but just seeing her smiling face made my day. my fav pic was of her and PlanetInfinite(?).

>
>Any one have any memories or words to share?

I was so glad that I got the chance to finally meet her when she came to Atlanta for Angie's book signing....it was so good to see her smile and laugh in person. I have one of our last convos saved on AIM...she was talking about the guy she was dating...and she was happy. I was lamenting over my former frustrating as hell job....i remember her telling me that it's ok to step out of your comfort zone...and not to take just anything because you are looking to run from that job. I hope she sees that i got the job that i wanted.

I do remember that my heart broke and it still hurts because I was supposed to be in S. Georgia (near Brunswick) not too far from her...the week after she passed and she invited me over for dinner because i was gonna be trapped in that hotel room watching Matlock reruns. Sometimes I wonder what if i could have moved my trip up a week...because i knew my job wouldn't have cared.

Hard to believe it has been a year.

I hope her family is doing well.

--Maurice

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BLAH, BLAH, BLAH...

Her chats got me through some very rough times.

Like "remember that girl...?"
damm
peace

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DROkayplayer: I'm a Professional Weed Smoker. Not because of how MUCH weed I smoke, but because of how WELL I smoke it.

she was such a special lady
our chats still bring a smile to my face

RIP nikki

inboxed back and forth, but she seemed like a really cool lady. RIP.

peace to her, her family and friends

i actually started posting right when this was going down. it was one of the things that drew me into this forum. to see the love and support you guys were giving each other, and of course love to 3rdI, showed me that this place was alright, and full of folks i could spend/waste a lot of time with. i've been here pretty much every day since. okp and gd particular has a big heart, its hard to see sometimes with all the snark flyin' around, but the love is there.

Rest In Peace, 3rdI, you will always be missed by those that were close to you

<<----This man must be fired at all costs.
Blog: www.abenghorn.net/Heat
Myspace: www.myspace.com/abenghorn
Crew: www.myspace.com/northernarcatl

acceptance, humour and understanding at a time when I wasn't feeling worthy of it.

And for that I am forever grateful.

Hope she has found peace.

miss u like yesterday...

~Tee

I wonder if she knew how much she'd be missed.

Pray her souls as peace.

Hadn't realized a year has already passed.

She was a great friend. Always willing to listen and give advice to whatever b.s. I was going through. We worked together for over a year, made workdays actually tolerable. I can't remember a time I didn't see her smiling, even when shit wasn't going great...

and what hurts most is seeing her blogs.

RIP.

.

came home from work. saw the post.
went out and drank myself silly.

i miss her so much.

i wish i coulda did something. it makes me sick.

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8.24.2007
7pm
redline
be there
or be SOBER
inbox for details

One of the few women on the boards who posted in High Tech. I remember we both got PSPs around the same time and were going back and forth with Lumines scores.

it's bad when I visit her page because I was the first person to leave a comment after the announcement.

Had I read before I replied... *shakes head*

well, nothing I could've done at that point either.

It's just been a goal of mine this year to keep closer to those I call my friends. Someone might be smiles on the outside but you won't really know what lies beneath unless close contact is kept.

~!~




Chocolate Rain
'Flippin cars in France the other night
Chocolate Rain
Cleans the sewers out beneath Mumbai

i want to leave her a message but she accidentally deleted me (and like 10 of yall...lol) and i never got a chance to go back in and friend her.

i want to leave her a message but i can't.

it's fuckin frustrating the shit out of me.

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8.24.2007
7pm
redline
be there
or be SOBER
inbox for details

my search function is failing me.

if you could link me, i can leave a message for you.
just let me know.


http://fuck-your.blogspot.com
http://www.myspace.com/insightclopediabrown
http://www.myspace.com/dumhi
http://www.youtube.com/group/okayplayer
http://www.last.fm/user/DawgEatah
R.I.P. 3rd i

if you are deleted and want to leave a message, do so via the blog page. the blogs are open to all people.

http://fuck-your.blogspot.com
http://www.myspace.com/insightclopediabrown
http://www.myspace.com/dumhi
http://www.youtube.com/group/okayplayer
http://www.last.fm/user/DawgEatah
R.I.P. 3rd i

i keep coming back to this post because i wanna hear more stories.

and i just finished repeating "i coulda done something" over again.

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8.24.2007
7pm
redline
be there
or be SOBER
inbox for details

Now Im all cried out. I cant keep thinking about the would of could of. I just keep telling myself that atleast she's not suffering any more.

So many things remind me of Nikki.
I miss our long talks about stupid shit.
She made me laugh.
A lot.
Whenever I see some new Sci Fi show or something else equally as nerdy, and i say that with the highest endearment, I think about how Nikki would have liked that and i get sad about how we can't talk about it for hours on end.
Her loss was a shock and yes, it still hurts bad.
I won't forget her.
And I wish her nothing but peace.
I hope we get a chance to catch up on our shared nerdiness one day.





http://fuck-your.blogspot.com
http://www.myspace.com/insightclopediabrown
http://www.myspace.com/dumhi
http://www.youtube.com/group/okayplayer
http://www.last.fm/user/DawgEatah
R.I.P. 3rd i

on the southside in chicago, we had a kick ass time. She made me laugh tons and watched how smashed I got

And then the party at donnie's house was the last time I saw her...she seemed happy...


I'm bringin sexy front...

http://tinyurl.com/lgsu3
http://myspace.com/mikdoodle

@}-,-`-

"The guy who takes a chance, who walks the line between the known and unknown, who is unafraid of failure, will succeed." - Gordon Parks

i hope she's finally at peace

A year to date
a solar eclipse trapsed darkness over my heart
covering a light that strove to find shine
a heart clentched between teeth of a hurting smile
saddened eyes covered by hazel concealers
reflecting back only as much happiness as you showed
Today as I sit in my lonely room
communicating again
with the only few that felt her
I am warmed
the contacts I realize were shades to protect ME
for the light was much stronger than I could have fathomed
laying there....
scientists say grass needs sun to grow too
so even in death, I guess she gave life
The sun is shining for the first time today
since I've been in Chicago
and I know why

SELAH

A cyclops seer
me myself
and 3rd i
blind leading the blind
kind bleeding in rhyme
I'm needing the shine

FOREVER MISSED

AND KNOWONE... stay up bro knowing that we are with you feeling it simotaneously that ugly beast of lonliness cannot consume you

LOVE

n/m

reluctantly...

I realize that it was written for you.

Shalom

one I've poasted before

but I've been recently listening to the other again and I really can't decide if I should do it... I think I will need to finish it but I don't think I'll poast it...

I hope she knows how much I miss her and love her and I hope she knows great peace.

RIP.

and it still saddens me
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If you bury your face in your tear-stained pillow and beg God to please send you your soul mate, may you not slur your words in such a way that they sound like "cell mate."
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y'all doth proclaimeth too mucho and shit ~ RAin

but i do remember when the post was made telling the tragic news.

i hope that the good memories she shared with people in this community are never forgotten.

hopefully she found peace, and it help to think that she didn;t do it outa self haterd, but of self loved she took herself away from what was hurting her and she is now smiling in peace andf happiness

She was cool as shit

But am too afraid to deleting it.
It's like I'm letting go if i do, i don't wanna.

we spoke on the phone a few times...and i will always feel bad for the fact that I stopped taking your calls and rarely answered your IM's...it was a selfish thing for me to do...

and even though your death didnt occur until well after the fact, I always wish I had still been your friend in your time of need.

Rest In Peace.

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http://www.last.fm/user/soulmatic/

formerly okp illstateofmind915

this is sad : /

i remember when this happened
seem like it was 2 months ago to me

dealing with her passing?

And I'm sorry, but perhaps that's just my way to cope.

I miss you, Nikki, and I hope so much that things worked out in the end.

I hate that you're gone though.

www.soul2020.com
www.myspace.com/chopsteak
http://chopsteak.blogspot.

Because she used to always be among ther first names you'd see on page 1 if you clicked "author"...which I did yesterday, which reminded me of that fact.

Ironic to see this post the day after.

www.theyesyesyalls.com
www.myspace.com/shamelessplug
www.myspace.com/theyesyesyalls
www.myspace.com/dumhi
www.myspace.com/phamelessslug

FREE ####!

that said :

Honey,
i told my husband that when we have kids ALL of them will have dreadlocks cuz i SUCK at doing hair. i'll ship u a box of some Pink Oil Moisturizer and u just hand it out to those women who's kids hair is fucked up!!!! hahhahaa

I didn´t know her but "knew of her" for years (She hit me based on a post I had made) and I thought the message was real sweet and funny. Then a couple of days later I saw a post that she had passed away. I couldn´t believe it. It was so sad, still is.

Rest in peace

i miss her. she sent me a plush puppy dog i have named sharky.


we miss you nikki.
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...no, but yeah...
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www.myspace.com/tylermadison

I didn't know her and I think I joined up after August 06' but I feel the pain in here. My Aunt ended her life around the same time Nikki did last year. Everyday its hard she was one of those people you always thought would be there in every phase of your life and i miss her with every breath I take.

I am sorry to all of those who were touched by, knew, loved Nikki. May she rest in peace.

*I wish I could have read some of her posts, she seemed like an extremely inspirational sista*

n/m

you were still one of the coolest okp on the planet.

____________________________
too weird to live, too rare to die

~!~




Chocolate Rain
'Flippin cars in France the other night
Chocolate Rain
Cleans the sewers out beneath Mumbai

for the first time in a long time, and i saw some comments a month or two old on her last blog entry. the profile is private and she ain't a friend, so i'm not sure its her. but i guess some people here know her. just thought i'd point it out for those that might communicate w/ her.

not on no asshole shit at all.

it is, and I'll check on her.


~!~




Chocolate Rain
'Flippin cars in France the other night
Chocolate Rain
Cleans the sewers out beneath Mumbai

yes.....nikki, you are missed.

http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y181/elyzion/nikki3.jpg

but the peaceful look on her face is so comforting to me right now...


♋~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~♋
☯ Your own inner consciousness is the true Mosque where all should worship... ☯

peace to her spirit.

I didn't know her at all, but just looking this post, and her blog and comments on Myspace almost brought tears to my eyes........

I tried to get my weight up when she was in a video game post. Amazing person, too bad I didn't get to know her as well as many others did. Peace.

...i think someone uses her old avy too or somethin.....

it's very admirable of you to post a rather helpful site for others who maybe considering suicide or for those who know someone who has considered it more than once...

RIP Nik...

"oh, and uh. I was telling Detroit Defender this morning, I got come up with a WHOLE new routine for your ass. Fat Jokes won't work anymore."
-Disco DJ