my first sexual experience (which happened last month)
was so *ridiculously* painful that I wasn't really interested in trying anymore
& even when we did try a couple more times
:(
I just wasn't feeling it
& I'm wondering how I'll ever get from this point
to a place where I like it enough to know what I really like, feen for it, etc.
I'm kinda discouraged about it, really.


...and in whatever I say, I hear you.