ain't it grand?
and amazing how
no matter how "not ready"
you think you are
you just GET READY
and then
nothing else is ever the same

and then
you start to forgive yourself
for being flawed
because after all
if you can give life
then certainly
you can forgive yourself
and affirm your own

and then
everything else just falls away
and you find yourself
forgiving motherfuckers
when before
you would have just said
"fuck you"
and let it be

i just got off the phone w/my uncle
in houston
who
among other things
is a raging alcoholic
he was getting drunk
at 9:30 in the morning
but needed to hear my voice
and i talked to him
for almost an hour
that was church
and i'm better for it