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I'm a big, big fan, and while I think ye is a deeply flawed album, it definitely made me realize that I'm in the "no guys, Dylan's Shot of Love is just as vital to his legacy as everything that came before" phase of my Kanye enjoyment (as a musician). But it's impossible to ignore that he needs to take a long break, TRULY address his mental health issues (not further encamp at a rich white boy ski resort) and maybe just slide into an executive producer role ala his idol Rick Rubin going forward.
My worry is he will never figure out how to sate his need for attention from millions with the need for attention his kids could provide, or his businesses, and that we will just be going through this cycle with him for the forseeable future.
I think I share a bit of a self-defeatist gene with him, on a much lower level. Whenever I begin to succeed at something, I almost immediately lay an egg in my brain that slowly incubates the thought that I'm actually no good at what I'm doing and don't deserve to be any better at it than I currently am, and then I start looking for ways to unconsciously sabotage it.
For me it usually manifest in things like, "this relationship is going well and it probably shouldn't," so then I find small ways to make it worse until it ends. For ye, I'm increasingly sure that he thinks fame HAS TO lead to mental health problems, as he idolizes many artists who slowly deteriorated under increasingly bright lights. It's clearly a theme of his music both literally now and figuratively from the Graduation period onward.
That could just be me projecting; I clearly can't understand the level of stress, scrutiny and pressure he is under from multiple angles on all kinds of levels. I just tend bar and sabotage my romances. But I see several tics and trends in his actions that remind me of my own bad habits, and I often think if I had any notoriety at all it might tear me apart.
~~~~~~~~~ "This is the streets, and I am the trap." � Jay Bilas http://www.popmatters.com/pm/archive/contributor/517 Hip Hop Handbook: http://tinyurl.com/ll4kzz
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