So there is this person I like. So anyways I have been praying for God to send me more people in my life that are more focused on life and less focused on irrelevant things. And by golly this dude fits the bill. Problem is I still have things I’m trying to work out on my focus. And so there is my dilemma. I’m taking my time but we are at a point where my unfocused ways are possibly beginning to show. Should I fall back or be honest? I am changing but haven’t changed all the way yet. The thought of having someone like him in my life makes me want to hurry and change but my question is should I just fall back until I get where I want to be or just be honest about my journey and keep moving forward. I’m not scared of losing the opportunity. I’m not scared of failing. What I’m scared of is being honest and moving too fast. Any help would be appreciated
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then you do that. You build together.

And communication is key for that to be reality.

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I don't owe you no explanation
for how I choose to live my life.

& life is short.
shoot your shot.

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I think we all know you're going to do what you're going to do anyway, but at the same time I think taking things one day at a time and not trying to push something just because you want it in the moment will pay off in the long run.

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He seems like a really nice guy and he is very patient which is a good thing.
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Its all about them now.





>So there is this person I like. So anyways I have been
>praying for God to send me more people in my life that are
>more focused on life and less focused on irrelevant things.
>And by golly this dude fits the bill. Problem is I still have
>things I’m trying to work out on my focus. And so there is
>my dilemma. I’m taking my time but we are at a point where
>my unfocused ways are possibly beginning to show. Should I
>fall back or be honest? I am changing but haven’t changed
>all the way yet. The thought of having someone like him in my
>life makes me want to hurry and change but my question is
>should I just fall back until I get where I want to be or just
>be honest about my journey and keep moving forward. I’m not
>scared of losing the opportunity. I’m not scared of
>failing. What I’m scared of is being honest and moving too
>fast. Any help would be appreciated
>... "A Beautiful Struggle"
>https://m.facebook.com/jamelabullock
>Www.reverbnation.com/jamela
>
>MELa
>Musically.Entertaining.Lyrically.Alluring.

This guy has a daughter so he seems to understand that family is always number one. But I also need adult company at times and he seems like a good person to hang with. No pressure.
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is going too fast. you'll always be working on yourself, regardless of what your life currently looks.

don't stop the potential of a relationship because you're not where you want to be, whatever that means. just find someone that can do the journey with you.

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

Just take your time and don’t make it more or less than what it is. Continue to work on me but communicate honestly. See what happens.
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try not to make it a pressurized situation for yourself or the dude.

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

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Oh well, it was a nice thought. It’s good to know I’m still capable of feeling butterflies for someone though so I’m not sad or anything. Timing is everything.
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But damn, scheduling is something that can generally be worked out or around if everyone is understanding of each other's responsibilities.

Like you can NEVER see each other?

Only once a month?

Is it a deal breaker?

Can you keep it platonic?

Is the universe giving you the answer but you not ready to receive the message?

what it do?

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And the universe is telling me the same thing a lot of you are. Take it slow. No pressure. I’m the one who decides what happens and when. This is the time that I can get what I want. I guess the question is what do I want? I want someone I can talk to without feeling pressure. I want someone I can express what I want and get a clear answer of whether or not he can make it happen. So far he seems good at making it happen.
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The only thing you can feasibly do is move at the speed of life
and if that cadence, at this time, is congruent with his own timing den ya'll can make something happen naturally. Otherwise, don't force anything, just ride the rhythm.

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Even in our day to day. I’m not forcing conversation. We are both grown and have lives it seems to be more like a how was your day thing. I want to have more time to chill with him a bit so I won’t have to ask how was your Day because here and there we have spent a part of our day together.
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I’ve come to realize that I’m just not ready to date
I’m not ready to be vulnerable
I haven’t resolved my insecurities

I think you should be up front with him and see where it goes...
you say you like him, right?

Then flaked cause he knew it might be different I have a massage degree So now it’s like what can our first date be? So I asked him to come to my Mama church-with me
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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

So I ain’t mad
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y’all church women get real open when a dude goes to church.

“Girtrrl, And he loves the lord!!!”

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especially a first date. that seems like what you do after you're a couple.

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

Outside of work.

So to me that’s a date. Plus my church starts at ten and ends at noon and I don’t have to get my kids until three so we probably will go eat afterwards.
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too many folks there that you'll know. I'd be real uncomfortable and wouldn't feel like I'm getting you. I'd be getting church version.

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

My dad and my brother have been and were very impressed this guy grew up in church but doesn’t go often in his adult life. I put it out there that since we seem to have scheduling conflicts and he asked what day would work for me that Sunday would be cool. I don’t go to church every Sunday. I go maybe once every two months. But I like to hear her preach. And wanted to check her out this Sunday since I’m off and see if he was down. He said yes very quickly. So I guess it’s about seeing if he follows through
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>So I guess it’s about seeing if he follows through

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

of "Let's fck" right???
Peep game Ma.


"Get ready....for your blessing....."

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shoulder & then straight to the love below lol...



"Get ready....for your blessing....."

Either way it wouldn’t have gone down like. I get massages all the time and I know how to play it cool. But I’m glad we didn’t even go there.
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I’m past that
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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

we just trying to help fam....


"Get ready....for your blessing....."

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with him lol..

I read that as HE offered YOU a massage.... is that not the case?
That's like me offering to bake a cake for a baker lol...

"Get ready....for your blessing....."

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you acknowledge you aint ready for?
Fall back
Focus and pray for yourself

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I wasn’t asking for anything. This guy has liked me for a while and I have been in my zone of staying focused on me and my boys. I still am. But I know I’m in want of good male company too. So I began to open up a bit to the thought of it. This guy seems super patient. And he works a lot. So that’s good no pressure and I like the fact that he doesn’t drink or smoke. A lot of my past relationships were with men that did he seems focused and very sweet. So I want to give him a chance as long as we go very slow.

I’m going to do things completely different with him not because I think he is the one but because I want to begin new habits of qualifying whoever I’m with and being the best me I can. That’s more important than anything
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Dude didn’t show up like he said he would. So I’m back to having a closed heart.

It’s cool tho. Nothing really was invested.
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don’t ever test a man like that again. LOL

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And that’s going to be my test everytime
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I hadn’t been in months and I love my pastor. She said something today that helps me with this situation. She said we should speak life into the things we want to succeed and to things we know that aren’t good for us we should speak to it at all. Silence kills. So I won’t be speaking to this guy again.
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going to church on a date, especially a first date is gonna be hard to accomplish. you build up to church.

and if a dude does show up, then what?

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

And it isn’t so much about the church thing as a date. If you read the post I told you we had planned something before this and he “forgot” and so he asked me what day would work for us to see each other. I said I was busy all week except Sunday I wanted to go to church with my mom and he was welcome to come. He replied yes great I’ll be there.


So it’s not about church being a first date. It’s about a man doing what he says.
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in regards to him keeping his promise to show up. no issue there.

I'm just saying if the intention is to date a guy, church is not high on the list for most guys. at least not until he's already somewhat familiar with you. otherwise, its pressure to meet all these folks that you may know and feel comfy with while you're the only person he kinda knows.

Y'all buy those labels, I was born supreme

And this isn’t a church I grew up in. So there is no pressure. But there are a lot of things in life that do have pressure it’s all about how you handle it. The kind of guy I want to date will be honest about feeling pressure and straightforward in how he deals with it
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So Church isn’t the issue in my opinion. It’s peoples perception of church going to church with someone shouldn’t be something to feel pressure about unless Churches gives you anxiety or disgust in which case that should be explained up front.
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isn't a good idea.

“So back we go to these questions — friendship, character… ethics.”

It wasn’t like I came out the gate like let’s go to church. No

This guy has brought food to my job a few times and we have spoken on the phone quite a bit too. The first time we planned a date it was a lunch date. But I got called into work so had to cancel that morning. Second time was that weird Massage thing which he brought up and planned for the following day, a Sunday after I got off work. But then he said he “forgot”. So I was like well I guess I’ll see you next year. Lol. In a joking way. So then a few days later he was like he wanted to see me and asked when I’d be free again. I told him I had a lot going on but Sunday I’d be free in the morning cause I was going to church. He was like yeah, I’m there!!!



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but I still don't get it.

“So back we go to these questions — friendship, character… ethics.”

Church isn’t something I have anxiety about. But if a person does I’m not mad I just would want that explained. Or just said. Communication is very important and what I realized from all this is that I wasn’t mad at all. I was disappointed because I was hoping to find most importantly a friend. Someone who I can share my feelings with and won’t be judgemental but also be honest with theirs. Anyone who knows me knows I’m really a laid back person I just require honesty. That’s basically it. I’ll choose what I will and won’t tolerate but I’m very much accepting of a persons individuality. I’m sure if I said I wanted our first date to be a fuck at his house he would have been down. Lol. Somehow going to church seems too fast tho in Okp’s opinion. I’m not gonna close my heart like I said earlier. My feelings were strong but not deep. So it’s not very hard to move forward optimistically.
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