5. "Can u fall in love if..." In response to Reply # 0 Sun Jul-23-17 09:13 PM by cloak323
you never actualized it?- never tried to get with them or let them know or get past the acquaintance stage.
Not a love at first sight thing: see them all the time at work or school or the neighborhood. So after a few times they leave you with the thought that you could be in love because they're that attractive and their personality leads you to perceive them as the kind of person they seem to be/you like. I've been there quite a few times- wake up, go to sleep thinking about them.
Or this thing can only be a gigantic crush or infatuation because you know..... you never found out what could/could not have been.
Ok. I like the thought of being in love too. Guess those us like creating that fantasy even though we pretty much know it's fleeting. In the moment it feels real as shit though, ha.
I still remember what I was wearing and doing the moment it hit me.
I have loved. And cared for. And been fond of. But I have not fallen head over heels since. Not even sure if I can.
Just once more would tide me over for another 14 years, I think. I don't need it too often. I prefer when they are in love with me. I'm much more careful with hearts.
>I still remember what I was wearing and doing the moment it >hit me. > >I have loved. And cared for. And been fond of. >But I have not fallen head over heels since. Not even sure if >I can. > >Just once more would tide me over for another 14 years, I >think. I don't need it too often. >I prefer when they are in love with me. I'm much more careful >with hearts.
Evvvvery now and then, if I wake up just before dawn, I am reminded of the last morning I saw him. The grey light coming through the window, the stillness and white noise, and for a second his body is enveloping mine, both of us wrapped in an old blanket with ugly flowers on it.
legsdiamond Member since May 05th 2011 79592 posts
Mon Jul-24-17 05:44 AM
9. "Memorial weekend 2017" In response to Reply # 0
The birth of my second kid. It's a different type of love but it's real.
**************** TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*
10. "1997 vs. 1990" In response to Reply # 0 Mon Jul-24-17 08:36 AM by bigkarma
I thought I was in love with my college girlfriend, in '90, and I was devastated when we we broke up. In '97, I met the woman who would become my wife of now 18 years, and it was a completely different feeling. So was I really "in love" in 90? Is love different at different stages of maturity? Or is love like a snowflake, and every one is different (Man, that felt sappy as hell to type)?
scared of being vulnerable i was dealing with a long bout of depression/anxiety at the time and that made navigating relationships difficult i was scared that if he peeled back the layers and saw the mess inside, he would run but instead, my thoughts created reality
it's been well over a decade. I've WANTED to get that feeling back, but yeah. The people I date generally get on my nerves in a short span of time. It's probably me, though. I'll own my shittiness.