I’m coming from the standpoint of a ceaseless daydreamer.
So many ideas. So many ambitions. Some great, some small, all worthwhile regardless of scale of magnitude of success or failure.

I wish I could say I failed at most of my ideas, but the truth is I never brought anything close enough to the surface to truly fail.
I have several partially written novels. A handful of outlines. I get random requests for progress updates from the handful of people I let read them because they enjoyed what little I’d done just enough to want more. Meanwhile I’ve since moved on to some other outline or chapter to some other story that will never be finished.

My website? My “big idea”? Sitting idle, 6 months behind server payments but even if my payments up to date, so what? How long has it been sitting there with minimal, insignificantly incremental movement? Not to mention a handful of several others that were, smaller, simpler and easier to get up and running. Nothing.

Music? I’ve had offers to buy unfinished beats- some from people here on OKP- that I never finished and thus, never sold. A few years back I sold 5 beats to a guy who is fairly successful on a small scale and doing features with current “names”. He wanted to pay far less than what I wanted so I said no thanks. Who knows what I could have gotten off that though? I could have at least developed a new network, got my name out a little.

I could have gotten my associates years ago and, at a minimum, have a better job and making more money in the same department. But nope.
This isn’t a post for wallowing. No feeling sorry.

Just facts and, just maybe, a little motivation for someone else. Not some “rise & grind” bullshit either.

I live in a constant state of shoulda, coulda, woulda, if only. That’s my “stuff” but I know with absolutely certainty that I am not alone in having a list of ideas that never saw the light of day.
Thing is, it doesn’t need to be that deep. It doesn’t need to be a big, ambitious project or a million dollar venture.

I’m not under some illusion that this will translate to some life-altering epiphany for anyone. I damn sure don’t think it’s going to jump start my pessimistic ass into magically mastering the art of the follow-through.

But we get two posts a day, so why not use one of them to hopefully inspire someone to take that thing, whatever it may be, a little further? Another line, the next chapter, a new track, give that podcast a test run, whatever.

I have "succeeded" in the way of setting a goal and accomplishing it
there are things I would love to do or quit on
but at the same time....I have a pretty good grip on reality and have family,friends,hobbies and a job I absolutely love
I could do more...but im pretty happy with what I have done
which in itself is an accomplishment
doesn't hurt everyone around me is doing well

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Navem nu, cuando sol
Tutu nu, vondo nos nu
Vita em, no continous non
Nos nu ekta nos sepe ta, amen

When the sun shades the ship
We sweat and life is not safe
To swim or to touch not
When we unite we hedge amen

I had the idea for about 5 years now, sat down and wrote it over the span of a year
put what little money I had into getting the first chapter professionally laid out and designed
When I saw the end result I was like "it can be done!"
fuck a gatekeeper, an agent, a publisher
I'm doing everything for self, putting my money where my mouth is
I ain't for that starving artist put me on bullshit
fuck a gatekeeper

I hate industry gatekeepers because they're dream killers and envious do nothing assholes who are only concerned with maintaining their position

It's been proven over and over again, gatekeepers are useless parasites
ask Jay, Master P, Wu-Tang, Cash Money, Luke, and many others
it has been done and can be done

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

and treat others with the same malcontent.

and sometimes they make posts peppered with optimism as they reflect on how life has passed them by.

not a dig at you but a general assessment.

also, i agree whole heartedly.

living for ones own desires - especially in the moment - is a safe bet - even when it doesn't seem so.

Gargles in the rat race choir
Bent out of shape from society's pliers
Cares not to come up any higher
But rather get you down in the hole that he's in

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forever.

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the untold want by life and land ne'er granted
now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find

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...I'm from the era when A.I. was the answer, now they think ai is the answer - Marlon Craft

I dig it.

“So back we go to these questions — friendship, character… ethics.”

always had friends that were more social/productive so in times I couldn't keep up or get in the same lane I'd use their penchant for knocking out projects/goals as an excuse to sit back and say if I couldn't it as easy as them that I probably couldn't at all

judging fish for riding bicycles lol

PEACE LOVE and MONEY

https://soundcloud.com/dabeatnik/drumpf-beer

and mild success only makes me beat myself up more.


what the fuck is WRONG with me?

IG: amadu_me

"...Whateva, man..." (c) Redman