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trying to make sure i'm taking care of everything at work while at the same time mentally and otherwise preparing for the baby. still a couple weeks from the due date, but we're on standby and TheWife is definitely hoping he hurries up and gets out of her. she's tired and ready.

now go runtelldat, ho.

Congrats

we're kind of going in circles. she probes and suggests what she thinks is right. I answer and in my mind Im like "nah", it's definitely helped but some things I may just need to work out on my own

this is shaping up to be a very busy month, I plan to earn the fuck out of this vacation in 3 weeks

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it's these kids
running to me when I walk in the door
sleeping at the foot of my bed
making bread together
doing their chores
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love em...

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>the other day a woman walk up to me and ask to be my friend
>I accepted. I need new friends...

was this a stranger? it couldn't have been, right? haha

and i'm very glad you're happy

i believe she may have overheard a convo I was having with my son about being new in town...

I'm happy for you too

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Doesn't mean you're not powerful, amazing, special in many ways. Just not in the way that necessarily protects you from anything in particular

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I've mentioned this before, but my wife and I took in her brother and his "wife's" (they not really married but she is the mother of his kids) two girls.

They lived with almost all of 2015. We took them because they needed to not be homeless and have some stability. In the meanwhile (almost a year) their parents have remained homeless, and their situation has technically gotten worse. They are not doing much, if anything, to lift themselves out of their condition, when OUR hope was that by taking on their kids it would take pressure off them to be responsible for the girls and get their own, adult lives together.

During this time, we agreed that we would claim one of the girls on our taxes, and the wife would claim the other since she did work during the year (the dad, my wife's brother, hasn't worked since i've been with my wife and even if he did, the government would take all of his money due to random legal issues including child support for two other kid's with another woman - so, he doesn't file taxes).

So, we go to do our taxes and our return is rejected because they claimed both girls. Now, it's not just the lie and betrayal that makes me so mad and is likely going to be my final straw in dealing with them, it's that WE very likely would have gotten more claiming both girls (let alone the one we agreed upon) than they did...and our plan was to do something really nice for the girls with that extra money (the oldest needs a laptop of her own and the youngest? i know we'd figure out something). WE could have done something nice and still give their parents their "cut" which would likely have been more than the "wife" got on her own. so fucking stupid, these people.

so not only did they lie, but they took blessings out of their own kids' hands once again. since we can't claim either girl, we're not gonna get enough back to really spend it like we hoped.

i really hate them. how they produced two normal, amazing children is a minor miracle i'll never understand.

thanks for letting me vent.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

the other thing that's pissing me off is whatever money they get from the IRS...

...instead of it going to their kids, because they are homeless, they'll probably end up spending it on stupid shit like motel rooms and stuff and it will be gone in a couple weeks instead of actually trying to use it to get their lives sorted out a bit better.

so. fucking. frustrating.

because their parents sound selfish and shortsighted as shit.

i just hate that they are hurting their own kids even further.

it's not just buying their kid's something nice with the tax refund, it's the issue of as long as they are living with us, the more money we have the better off the girls are because if they need something, whether it's just a desire or a real need like something for school, then the more likely we are to have the funds to provide those things.

at this point our options are to just eat it and file w/out the girls, demand money from them when they get it (then there's the issue of them agreeing to that and how much they actually got back and have to give), or paper filing so we can prove the girls are our dependents (the "wife" technically can't claim them because they aren't qualifying dependents since they didn't live with her) and having the IRS pay us and then the IRS will come shake the "wife" down for the money they'll have paid her which i know will be long gone by the time the IRS comes trying to get it back.

none of these options are very appealing, but the last one is what's best for the girls but maybe the worst for the WHOLE family cuz who knows what kind of fights that will cause.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

About a guardianship or outright adopting those kids.

i still blame hip-hop.

the problem is i'm not really sure how that would fly w/in the family.

outright guardianship would definitely make life easier. at the same time, both my wife and I don't want to keep the girls parents from them if they want to see them - not that adopting them means they couldn't see their parents i just don't want them to feel like we're kicking their parents out of the way.

that said, the older one (age 15) understands everything going on and has been really frustrated with her parents of late.

What your ultimate decision is can only be improved by having a better understanding of your case.

Maybe you ultimately decide to keep on as is and don't hire an attorney. You're only out an hour of your time and possibly a small consult fee. But from what you've shared it would be the best thing for everyone and in no way prohibits the children from having a relationship with their bio parents.

I can probably get you a family law referral in the Seattle metro if you want.

i still blame hip-hop.

that's a tough one. I've cut people off for less.

I have no patience for people who don't take their lives seriously.

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i mean, they don't have anywhere else to go but with us.

now, if their parents felt like we were "stealing" them then i'd let them set it off and we could go to court, but at the end of the day they know we are taking care of their kids better than they can so they won't buck at that.

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it's crazy looking at your kid and seeing yourself look back at you.

I have to work harder and longer than I have ever worked in my life to make sure she has everything she needs.

Thank goodness for family. I don't know how single parents do it. Props to all of you who hold it down.

I have to make sure the wife and I have our time as well. She is home all day with the baby and I see the stress on her face. Going to try and spoil her in a few weeks with a massage at the spa.

it may be time to sell my car. I love that car but 2 car payments doesn't make sense.

also looking into refinancing the house and paying down some debt.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

my son is almost 5 months old now.

the way he looks at me is amazing.

the way he looks like me is amazing.

i just want him to be the happiest person ever and have all the things i never had when i was growing up.

it's pretty awesome being a dad, huh?

it's crazy seeing a little me looking back at me.

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TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*

i mean i have lived in ATL, CHI and NY so I have seen my fair share of homeless folks but nothing like this here. it is so sad.

the key to happiness is not being rich;
it's doing something arduous and
creating something of value and then
being able to reflect on the fruits of your labor

so I never realized it was worse here.

I know the weather is much better for a homeless person here, but it's not like a Chicago homeless person can afford to get to L.A. just for that...so no idea if it's because of the low number of jobs, or the high drug use that goes on, or even the whole Hollywood "I'm gonna make it" shit...I don't think that's a huge part, though.

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it is literally EVERYWHERE
i am staying in koreatown and literally pass tents on the sidewalks and parking lots everyday...at least the ones over here don't seem as mentally ill/drugged out as the ones I pass in DTLA.
i think the folks in DTLA are the ones that f*ck me up the most.
i read an article that said those are the worst of the homeless because they are the ones who couldn't figure/ have the resources to get to venice. the homeless in venice seem to fall more into the "didn't make it in hollywood" "escaping society" vibe.

i also started following this instagram account out here (can't think of the name) where they do self portraits of homeless people and interview them...it really shows their humanity....i realize that i am really lucky to have a support system that i know no matter how broke i am or how strung out i am they would do everything they can to try to keep me off the streets....everybody doesn't have that.

the key to happiness is not being rich;
it's doing something arduous and
creating something of value and then
being able to reflect on the fruits of your labor

Most ppl get disability checks or something.
Just not enough for housing.

Just hard to believe someone homeless, especially assuming they have family in whatever town they're in, would even consider spending the few hundred dollars they might get on a check (if it's even that much at a time) to move somewhere unfamiliar to them solely for the weather.

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>Just hard to believe someone homeless

the homeless in LA who came from other places may not have been homeless when they arrived in LA. they may have had some sort of living situation set up that ultimately fell through.

but yes there are folks to move there from other places and get rooms in hotels or motels or SROs and plan to find something more permanent. it doesn't work out or they have an emergency and then they're on the street.

, especially assuming
>they have family in whatever town they're in

plenty homeless ppl don't have family on which they can rely for support - either financial or w/housing or anything else. plenty families are out here just barely making it and are just a simple emergency away from being destitute. plenty of them may have family but have a drug problem or a mental health issue or some other condition that prevents them from reaching out to their family network.

would even
>consider spending the few hundred dollars they might get on a
>check (if it's even that much at a time)

it might not cost a few hundred dollars to reach LA from __. it can be done on the cheap in many different ways.

to move somewhere
>unfamiliar to them solely for the weather.

not solely for weather. also for services. and job opportunities.

fuck you.

blocks from Staples and LA live there are enough homeless people (singles and families) to fill an entire project

also, you seen this:

http://www.latimes.com/local/cityhall/la-me-0825-homeless-tiny-houses-20150825-story.html

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fuck you.

broke down ppl flock there b/c why be miserable in cold-ass Chicago if you can make it to LA? misery out there is much less miserable. plus the state, county and city(ies) provide better services for the homeless out there.

but mainly it's about the weather.

fuck you.

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Maaaan, so I'm trying to deal with my anger and frustration with the Flint Water Crisis. That's my hometown and I just can't sit back and watch. I've been sending emails to water filter companies trying to get them to donate some of there home systems to the residents of Flint. I'm trying to send every little dollar I can scrounge up to the United Way of Genesee County to help them help the residents of Flint. I'm blogging and posting via FB about it. I'm just so frustrated by the situation. I care. I may not live there anymore, but I care.

I'm so ready to hug pandas for a living!!! That ish looks like the best job ever!!!! Instead of that, I'll be working as a Caregiver. Our plan with me being hands off with my Mother-In-Law just imploded due to my hubby's job. And, weirdly I'm cool with it. I think its because my therapist and I are working through quite a bit of my feelings and issues. And, I'm feeling better about things.

Have a good day peeps! I've got so much on my plate right now. So, I'll pop in from time to time.

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fuck, i have no idea how i tweaked my shit

but

before bed last night I knew I was going to run into some upper back pain

sure enough, right around 4am I was shocked out of sleep by throbbing back pain.

I self medicated and took a puff and passed out till 730.

This morning I was wrecked with whole body spasms originating at the area between my shoulder blades.

On the way to work I went to shabby massage parlor to have someone put an elbow in my back.

So far I'm doing a bit better but I am a firm 30 seconds from saying "fuck this" and going home to puff and lay on my sofa.

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at lunch today.

me 35, her 49. both corporate. friends for about 3 or 4 years. we lunch a couple times a month. never really had the race convo. today i showed her a picture of my twins(boy/girl/5yo) and she's gushing over them. they are getting big! she asks if they are close, to which i respond sometimes too close. ??? i explain that i'm not comfortable with my son watching my little pony and playing with his sisters barbies. when i catch him, i tell him to stop and we go do boy stuff(not the only time we do boy stuff, but you get the idea) she freaks out. you're going to make him crazy and neurotic.

i said the cards are stacked against him as a black male in america already, i don't need him weirding out on me now but i love him and will continue to love him regardless. she says i'm homophobic and i respond that the Super Bowl party i'm going to is at my friends house who i've known since CAU, and is gay. who cares? she says see, people are people. but then i told her being black in america today is a battle, just as it was when i was growing up, and my father before me. she rolls her eyes and says she gets profiled too, as long as you don't go waving guns at the police you will be good........................................

i couldn't. not there. it hit me. up until now she was one of the most open minded people i knew in the corporate world. but then i imagined her watching the news every night and telling black people to get over it. then i started to replay our past convos that got close to race but never went there. she thinks we play the victim. a lot of us do, absolutely. but to not acknowledge racism in america is kinda head in the sand to me, and disappointing.

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Before even touching on that, I know for sure that a lot of folks on here will be on your head about not wanting your son to play with what's seen as "girls toys." Just beware.

But as for her thinking we're victims...yeah, I notice that especially for L.A. corporate folks, people aren't blatantly racist, but more so non sympathetic towards us in many situations. They victim blame pretty bad, and feel like we must bring on the drama that we get...and WHENEVER they have a chance to prove that it's actually our fault in a situation, they use it against us forever.

Worst thing I heard from someone Asian is that Blacks should be happy that they got a "free ride" here, and that it happened so long ago, we can't possibly feel bad about slavery because it didn't "directly" affect us. And he proceeded to tell me how his grandparents had to sneak over here on a boat, and that some of their friends got killed while doing so. I really wanted to say "but..I thought you were on our side!!!"

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Before even touching on that, I know for sure that a lot of folks on here will be on your head about not wanting your son to play with what's seen as "girls toys." Just beware.

But as for her thinking we're playing as victims...yeah, I notice that especially for L.A. corporate folks, people aren't blatantly racist, but more so non sympathetic towards us in many situations. They victim blame pretty bad, and feel like we must bring on the drama that we get...and WHENEVER they have a chance to prove that it's actually our fault in a situation, they use it against us forever.

Worst thing I heard from someone Asian is that Blacks should be happy that they got a "free ride" here, and that it happened so long ago, we can't possibly feel bad about slavery because it didn't "directly" affect us. And he proceeded to tell me how his grandparents had to sneak over here on a boat, and that some of their friends got killed while doing so. I really wanted to say "but..I thought you were on our side!!!"

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i can't/don't talk politics or race at the job.

but i was at lunch, with my friend, and we always say whats on our mind. i value her opinion on a lot of stuff and she tells me about her stuff too.

it hit me that we have never talked race, and now i'm mad we went there.

the real world is out there man. if the shit hit the fan and we had to choose sides, i know where i'm at, but now i can't say the same about her.

she was prolly like rodney king had drugs in his system soooooooo *blink*

I'm black and gay as a motherfucker, btw.

She right about you maybe making too much of your 5 year old playing with his sister's toys. It's not as deep as you're making it, maybe. And yeah - the boy might get the wrong message from you making such a deal out of it.

I dunno what else she said but that part of the story stuck out to me. Probably bc I have friends whose parents literally tried to beat the gay out of them as kids. All it did was give my friends a host of problems and it created distance between them and their parents. Meanwhile I'm gay as fuck and grew up hating girl shit. And I have 2 hetero homies who played with dolls as kids. And studies show kids who play with the opposite gender's toys don't necessarily become gay adults. We put too much on all of that.

fuck you.

because i value your perspective on a lot of topics.

i do catch myself from going in. but my daughter is a girly girl, just like my wife. she does the wrist thing and the neck roll thing and its cute as hell because she's 5. but i see my son doing the wrist thing and the neck roll thing and i'm like SIR, NO, NOT AT ALL. but then I drop it and we're cool.

just don't want him picking up on shit like that thinking its okay. to me its not. ultimately, things are going to play out and i will love him no matter what. but the world won't let him chill, and my wife's ultra christian parents are a heavy influence on that type of stuff with her (and in turn my kids).

>just don't want him picking up on shit like that thinking its
>okay. to me its not.

I dunno, man. The world will teach the boy that him being femme is 'unacceptable'. If that's who he is he will need a safe space. At home.

fuck you.

shit is rough, but you are right. goes into the no matter what i was speaking about earlier. i will walk the walk with him for sure. and jesus christ he's only 5, lol. but i see what you're saying.

Plus - he's only 5. They go through so many phases. This might just be one of those.

But the coworker was tripping with everything else she said. I wouldve wanted to go off. Lol

fuck you.

he was into Jem, Care Bears, Rainbow Brite etc. as a kid and I was right there with him because that was my boy

when the Adina Howard "Freak Like Me" video came out, I knew I was put on this earth to fuck women

he's now married to a white guy with long money, like "multiple trips to Dubai a year" long money

Im married to a woman and still trying to figure out how to come up in life

moral: boys exposed to "girly" things can wind up straight. also if a boy ends up gay he could have a great life

I dont quite get the connection between victim blaming and a kid hanging out with his sister either, but hey

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