Have you ever had one? How did you pull yourself out?
Have you ever been on the verge of having one? How did you keep yourself from completely unraveling?
I had a nervous breakdown in college. A combination of pre existing depression + multiple aspects of my life falling apart + lack of support system led me to quickly unravel. It's been a rocky ride ever since. 10 years later, I look around and see ppls lives progressing, but I dont feel like I've moved forward or ever recovered. It's tho my "spirit" died in 2005. A string of bad events recently caused me to spiral again. I've been here before so I know the signals, but I don't know what to do.
2. "i dont live alone, don't have a s/o" In response to Reply # 1 Wed Oct-28-15 08:14 AM by IpanemaGirl
>are your parents alive? Yes
>any friends that are worth a damn? None
>what almost knocked you out in 2005? A lot of seemingly little issues/situations occurring at once. I could have handled each issue on its own, but all at once at that age/state of mind..The perfect storm: pre-existing depression, what I now understand to be toxic/verbally abusive upbringing and poor parenting --> poor coping skills to start
Going to college 1000 miles away not knowing anyone, having a very difficult time socially, feeling isolated then isolating myself, going from top of my hs class to super depressed and not being able to do any academic work sleep or eat. Felt like my brain no longer functioned. parents don't believe in depression they were mad at me for being depressed. Me not even understanding I was depressed. Then A LOT of family drama surroundiing me that I was kindly dragged into. Absolutely no support system...felt like I was left "out there" this is all fresh year. This is just surface level stuff. More serious events have occurred and partially due to my depression things just kept going downhill since then to where I felt/feel too far deep to pull myself out
>is your home clean/straight/organized? mostly unorganized but not dirty. clean when I'm not in a funk
>are you living in filth? No
>how's your health? Not very good, one of the "bad events" is a serious health issue that I emotionally can't even handle right now
legsdiamond Member since May 05th 2011 79824 posts
Wed Oct-28-15 09:07 AM
4. "10 years is a long time to look back" In response to Reply # 0
and it's prolly why others look like they are making progress and you feel stuck.
The wife and I made a bad financial decision in 2008 and we let it fuck up our progress for a few yrs years.
Hind site really is 20/20 and looking back can lead to more bad decisions.
gotta let stuff go, forgive yourself and keep pushing.
prolly need to talk to someone professional about it
**************** TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*
9. "ive seen a few therapists but it doesn't seem to help" In response to Reply # 4
hope you are your wife have recovered/ starting to recover from the financial mistake
im stuck in another country bc my "friend" flaked on me so Ive been extra pissed and in my feelings this past few days. I've calmed down a bit. Tomorrow is a new day.
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