Got an app an everything I drink entirely too frequently and Buddy said something the other day that stick with me. Talking about people in their 40s you can see it on them And I started thinking about my trajectory and what I can change in the now and in the short term And I “stopped drinking” Or at least I decided to start keeping an eye on it an holding myself accountable My drinking problem is addiction through habit I don’t even like drinking that much, but I picked it up like a habit I think of t like Facebook, it’s a time filler for boredom And we’re still trying to find a balance in our lives and I don’t want to rock the boat Like push for exercise or movies she doesn’t like So I just lounge around near her and drink ... helps the boredom pass But this week I shook things up. I started picking back up exercise. Asked if she wanted to watch a movie. Tried to do yoga last night Etc Like actively trying to do things with her instead of just being around each other It’s not easy because we’re in my parents house, so limited space, but it’s jnportsnt to do this A true blue confession.
------ “There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus
4. "My wife is real life Captain Marvel (spoilers if you have not seen it)" In response to Reply # 0
she grew up with a dad (Jude Law) who suppressed her power for his own control I met her for the first time and she scared me she scared me because im pretty good at being able to see potential in people i was drawn to her because i saw who she could be...and that i could help her her having our daughter was her version of blowing her limiter and unlocking Binary Form (https://i1.wp.com/comicbookinvest.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/08/8bcb86184f0306b5dcca37a3a12e16230a700292_hq.jpg?w=540&ssl=1) She is now at a frequency that is scary and its so sexy and its made me question gender roles
Wale put out tweet:
"I'm watching always be my maybe and I have decided I want to carry my more successful GFs purse and be her arm candy...I have no ego also please lemme borrow your black card while u out being famous boo"
I finally came to the realization my wife is more successful and im ok with that...more than that i encourage it which is crazy
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Navem nu, cuando sol Tutu nu, vondo nos nu Vita em, no continous non Nos nu ekta nos sepe ta, amen
When the sun shades the ship We sweat and life is not safe To swim or to touch not When we unite we hedge amen
legsdiamond Member since May 05th 2011 80086 posts
Wed Jun-19-19 09:51 AM
9. "We are about to get our first payday with no daycare bill" In response to Reply # 0 Wed Jun-19-19 09:57 AM by legsdiamond
It’s going to be magical.
I went to the Nike outlet store to look at shoes... for my damn self.
It’s the halfway point for our vacation from the kids. Going bowling tonight.
Can’t wait for our trip to Cape May in July. Think we are going to rent a car/SUV so we can really enjoy the trip without worrying about putting miles on the car.
Also. I watched the Chicago documentary.. the band not he city. Amazing. I wish our band could’ve found a way to survive but ehhh, prolly for the best. Sometimes I think I may have died from touring and drinking so much. It was soooo much fun tho. Blessed to have those memories.
**************** TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*
**************** TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*
legsdiamond Member since May 05th 2011 80086 posts
Thu Jun-20-19 10:08 AM
14. "I’ll inbox that info. " In response to Reply # 13
and yes, ya boy been misspelling like crazy.
“I apologize” - BBD.
**************** TBH the fact that you're even a mod here fits squarely within Jag's narrative of OK-sanctioned aggression, bullying, and toxicity. *shrug*
12. "Dap MEAT.......I'm three days sober" In response to Reply # 0 Wed Jun-19-19 09:17 PM by tully_blanchard
Like you...I drink out of boredom and convenience. If it's here, I'll drink it til it's gone. Thats a big reason my Fathers Day was so shitty..we both got drunk and got into a huge fight (to the point The Kid is barely speaking to me now). I've gone a whole year sober before...then I moved to the A...smh..
I actually went to a meeting the other night. Dont know if I'll go back or not...iono..
The hardest part about drinking for me is the association it has for me with music. Being a dj, it's hard to think about playing music without a drink in my hand. I've done it before..just kept plenty of Ginger Beer and tea handy. The "near beers" kinda sorta hold me off..but they make me so full I feel terrible afterwards. You see they got a Heineken 0.0% jawn?
Anyhoo..I've been working from home the past couple of days and I actually concentrate better from home than I do at the office..lol. This is friggin' awesome.
Planning a solo trip to Paisley Park in the spring. Can't wait.
I asked my homeboy to make me a Prince "Wrecka Stow" t-shirt. He did, free of charge...it sucks. Been wrestling with how to say it cause dude is super nice...sigh...just gotta say I aint feeling it.
yea it was official in January yea it sucks yea i admit i did some things that maybe i shouldn't yea I should have seen signs but all in all, resentment killed our partnership It's hard living with a person who holds on to resentment so much that every mistake feels like its another block in the wall and there's no way to tear it down It's harder that looking to escape from that resentment means no matter what is done, it's null, and there's a flat out refusal to even hear what the other is saying but the hardest thing is knowing that even at your best, all they can see you is at your worst..... and the lack of commitment from her was damning also.
and i know i'm a good dude.
so in the past few months, I've picked up dating. it's fun, and i feel better because I am the man I always thought I was.
I've become a better father to my son. I've shown him that dad truly loves him despite what mom says about me.
My Business has picked up. Doing better than last year and looking to open up my first retail spot.
But it still sucks being here. even though life is what you make it, I wanted the time invested in a 13 year relationship to be better than where I am now.
20. "Good Bro. It's been a long time. " In response to Reply # 15
Hey Bro, I'm really sorry to hear about your divorce. Man, If you ever need to talk to an unbiased ear I'm willing to just listen and chop it up. Man, I've been there and it's not a good feeling a there can be some lingering things, but all in all, you will recover more than you think you've given away or lost.
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“It was the evidence from science and history that prompted me to abandon my atheism and become a Christian.” — Lee Strobel, The Case for Christ
17. "Imma grandmother and all..." In response to Reply # 0
I still like to keep my ear to the street tho. Tierra Whack! I don’t know. that two I can stick around four always been a bgirl...
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my eldest grandson (12) get on my nerves. his growing into being the kind of kid no one will like. the sad part he doesn’t even realize it. Yesterday, I checked his little ass. Told him, my job as grandmother is to challenge him. He still hugged me when he left today, lol. In fact. of my three grandkids...he’s the most affectionate.
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