it can unstunt growth
make offenders nervous
and cause light to shine in darkened places

this muthaphucka picked up the wrong trick
one that can act
and 'be' a trick, or a silent soldier
if neccessary...
if only to prove the prevailing thought of purity
.. and true blamelessness
all the more wrong

Started out unaware...
of the viciousness
and wired manications
that lived in that mind
Although my own family warned me..
It used to be that i would argue you under the table
in their defense..
I can't do that now..
because I am NOW feeling the pressure
that I heard so much about..

the pressure to stay
when I really wanna leave

to stay and help others
when I really wanna be concerned with my
currently collapsed existence

early

it has only just begun
I proved myself worthy of honor
in the house of GOD
never wavering from my vocal post
never truly letting on to the debauchery that surrounded me
and still does, in fact...
although in a newly configured form
so as to go undetected

I ain't no snitch
far from it
if i was i woulda told right off
but the man in me
spoke volumes
and the little I could accomplish
I did
and look at what it got me

your boy's conscious is clear as f*ck though
and i am not apologizing for you and your mistake
..no matter what the speakers say...
To think that you could willfully suck me dry,
literally and figuratively..
and then cast me aside
as easily as you did your helpmeet
who apparently got weary in the battle..
leaves me feeling disallusioned to who you are at your core..

today
i am a free man
in heart and spirit
I pray that GOD leads me into the consciousness
of authority in spirit and truth
enabling me to say what needs to be said
and moreso the hour in which to say it..

it won't be easy
there is so much history
and so little time



Nathaniel's music is now here :
www.myspace.com/nisanluv