again.

its been 5 years.

we have a 3 year old now

we're co-dependent

idk if its true

but she's acting the same way she did back then when she was riddled with guilt. sad, crying randomly, and won't talk to me.

we sent the kid away last week so we'd have time for ourselves. it felt like back when we weren't parents, free and in love, but with more experience and camaraderie. We needed to work on things because parenting and work take so much out of you and i felt like this was going to be a turning point, but she just hasn't seemed right since yesterday when i came in and she just started crying when she looked at me. I thought it was something i did, but she assured me it wasn't. Usually if it was she wouldn't even respond.

i don't know what to do. we're not married. neither one of us is in a place financially to separate. our families live far away so we don't have a real support system.

i don't know what to do. i can't just leave, but i can't do this again.

i know this is gonna turn into a witch hunt but this is the only place i can get this off my chest. There won't be an update after this.