https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4VeXqN1S4BA


this song came to me at 4am last night. couldn't sleep. but in a good way as opposed to how it's been. last two nights i've been flooded with ideas. creative, business, etc.

anyway, a verse was in my head:

Be anxious for nothing, but in all things, through prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God, and the Peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus - Philippians 4: 6-7

i'd been thinking about that alot, anyway. that's been the go to for like the last 3 or 4 years with different things i've been dealing with. and then last thursday, my middle son called us from college and told us he was having breathing difficulties and felt like his chest was being squeezed. my older son lives in the same city as him and drove him to the emergency room. my wife and i tore up the road driving an hour and a half to where he was (and my oldest daughter brought the rest of the kids and was like 45 min behind us).


cj3 was alright, thank God. all the tests (ekg, etc., ) were normal. doctors and nurse seemed to think it was an anxiety attack. he'd had an asthma / allergic reaction a couple of years ago, when he was in high school and we were riding home from football practice and couldn't breathe and we had to call the paramedics. we had him tested subsequently and he has a severe reaction to this fairly rare pollen in the area.

other potential is maybe thyroid related, if he was having some kind of heart fluttering, triggering an anxious reaction. we'll take him to the doctors on Friday. he turned 20 yesterday.

always something, but so thankful he's good.

anyways, my wife and i had given him that verse because we knew he was anxious about school (has to get over a 3 pt this semester in school to get off academic probation, he's aware that $$$ is tight, and then the news about my job). we been trying to reassure him that everything is cool.

i'm laying in bed at 4am last night and i just ponder that verse, while also thinking about all of these ideas. in the song, there's a line that says:

"...when you live for him, he'll let you see/
how wonderfulll, His Peace can be/
you must let gooooo
or you'll never knowwww"

absolutely beautiful song. i used to have that on a slow jam mixtape i made waaay back in the day. used to go over REAL well with the well-versed musical honeys. i didn't mess w/ anything close to gospel (or The Gospel) at all back in them days, but this cut always spoke to me.

and rodney franklin is such a gorgeous piano player. when we talk about them songs that bring tears to your eyes, this is one of them for me. and he got at least two other ones:

A Song For You (original WHUR / melvin lindsey Quiet Storm staple) and one of my favorite songs, ever.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RWM7H4wDQGo


and, of course,

The Groove

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xo6q-WltGGk

funky, jazzy throwback to when radio wasn't so segregated with artificial, corporate marketing spawned genre boundaries that led to creative death.

anyway, it has been a LONG time since i had the kind of creative burst of ideas and energies that got me up at 4am to jot down an idea before it was lost. so it must mean something.

(earlier in the week i couldn't sleep and also had a music jones, so i youtubed Dream** of the Blue Turtles by Sting. i love that album and hadn't heard it in prolly 20 years. been wearing that out, too).

somethin bout to give.

how y'all?


**EDIT: DREAM of the Blue Turtles. typin too fast.

peace & blessings,

x.

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