this is what i remind myself when i think about contacting him.

we are creeping up on christmas
and we spent last christmas together
so now i find myself thinking of dumb texts to send like
"how have you been?"
or "i heard this song i know you'll like"

and then maybe that will start a correspondence
and maybe we'll meet for dinner
and maybe he'll suggest getting together later
and maybe we could hang out over New Years

but that's a stupid fantasy because nobody dumps ppl
because they want to hear or see from them more often
so really i need to chill.


it's been months since i've bumped into him
and when i did bump into him he said "it seems like it's been forever since
we've talked."

which is true. because he broke up with me.
presumably because he wanted to see less of me.

how come every so often, you'll think about an ex
and start having these delusions about how they may want to
"hang out" or "see how things are going."

there's no need for any of this.
if he wanted to hear from me, he'd call.