Got an app an everything
I drink entirely too frequently and Buddy said something the other day that stick with me. Talking about people in their 40s you can see it on them
And I started thinking about my trajectory and what I can change in the now and in the short term
And I “stopped drinking”
Or at least I decided to start keeping an eye on it an holding myself accountable
My drinking problem is addiction through habit
I don’t even like drinking that much, but I picked it up like a habit
I think of t like Facebook, it’s a time filler for boredom
And we’re still trying to find a balance in our lives and I don’t want to rock the boat
Like push for exercise or movies she doesn’t like
So I just lounge around near her and drink ... helps the boredom pass
But this week I shook things up. I started picking back up exercise. Asked if she wanted to watch a movie. Tried to do yoga last night
Etc
Like actively trying to do things with her instead of just being around each other
It’s not easy because we’re in my parents house, so limited space, but it’s jnportsnt to do this
A true blue confession.

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“There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn.” -Albert Camus