"i want you, and i want you to want me too. want you to love me to-- just like i want you."the thing is you can't fake that, it either is or isn't. so it's not so much about fearing rejection it's definitely not about if he'll be irritated if i call. but if i wanted him, and he didn't want me, that's a fundamentally un-fixable problem. it won't matter if we have a great conversation or if we hook up once or twice. that elephant is still in the room and i should focus my attention on one of the other billions of ppl on the planet.