.. working... commute was in full tilt this morning... I'm going to buy a bucket.. I might end up breaking down or in a horrible accident because it's a bucket but I won't be doing this 3 trains and a bus sardine can routine... so much touching and breathing, let alone the straight up shoving and body stinking...

I messed up over christmas... the further alienation and estrangement resolution was no joke.

oh well.. I got ideas.... just hope I can keep my energy up for them.. brings me back to this stupid commuting thing.. wow I'm beating TF out of this horse it must be dead.... ok... bucking up.. now.. go.