the firstborn

apple of my eye

he just flipped on me and turned every second of about 4 years into a constant mexican standoff

the whole house was a hellish emotional hurricane

there were times i didn't know if my marriage would survive

its better now, but truthfully I still haven't recovered fully

for a second my whole steeze went from "pouring into" to "I just gotta survive till he's gone, and not go to prison"

its crazy how someone you love so much can be your greatest source of pain