>There was a period of time when I knew he cared. It’s how I
>began to care.

So you don't want to know how much he loved you, you want to know how much he cared. That's valid, but it seems like his absence and the fluctuations of the intensity of expressing his care for you already equip you with the answer you're looking for. Sometimes...MOST times...the act of "Saying" or "telling" someone is nothing more than an unnecessary formality IMO.


>and I believe only love can sustain relationships.
Love isn't the only thing that can strengthen or support a relationship. And it damn sure can't do it all on its own. If that's all a relationship has is love...then it's doomed from the start. If that's all a broad relationship is whittled down to after some years, then it's doomed to eventually end.

"Get ready....for your blessing....."