about a decade or more ago I was having some similar thoughts about my past with a few different women... imagine my relief when I did reach out to them and apologize and they told me it was not as bad as I imagined it was... not saying this will be your experience as we are talking specifically about mine and theirs but I was glad to clear the air and realize I wasn't half as bad as I thought I might've been... the thought of the pain I may have caused was awful nobody deserves poor treatment.

people deserve the honor and respect of your best hindsight failing your ability to give it in the moments past.