Nada

- sometimes I worry Im too ambitious for my own good

- Vegas last week was cool but I spent way too much money eating and taking Lyft. I still haven't had a perfect vacation though, something always goes wrong.

- small things can upset me for sure. the "hbd" thing doesnt upset me, it's just inconsiderate/impersonal if we know each other in person. I made an exception for my boy's husband who I've yet to meet, I deleted someone else's comment altogether. I'd much rather you not go out of your way than give me an abbreviated greeting

the rest of me may not be original
as there's usually something missing with YOU
so you'll get what I want you to have...

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yeah ya'll

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only 41.

Wtf. Way too many deaths this year.

All due to dealing with ailing and dying parents between me and my wife.

I had read somewhere that the saddest age for people is early 40s. Damn they nailed that one.

The happiest ages is 19 and early 60s. I can see that.



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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

-I can't do crazy. I was some what scared that one day she would direct that towards me. I don't put anything past her.

-I enjoyed my vacation. I would love to live in Paris. It was beautiful.

-I need to start yoga. My body needs it and so does my mind. I'm just scared that I won't do well in class but the fear of my body falling apart is much greater.

-I am going back to taking classes. It's been over a year since I took a class. I want to focus on yoga and ceramics this summer.

-There might be a new position created for me in the college. It will be a lot of work but the only way to move up. I have a dollar amount in mind. I won't take it if they don't meet my salary requirements.

I don't know if it's spam or he just texting. And I can't ask that question because he's been going through some mental health stuff and he's a bit fragile and sensitive. I should just click it. But what if it's spam.

I drove the long way out of my development so I could admire my green lawn and lack of weeds...
i am proud as hell of my lawn this year...

nothing wrong with stuntin bruh

Best of times, worst of times

stop playing games yo... someone has to move out. This ain't Friends.

And the more I think about, the more it makes sense. I'm actually scared at how much it makes sense to me. It feels like relief rather than resignation.

With one exception, being in a relationship with a man has never made my life better. It's only made it worse or had little effect.

I guess you can say I've learned things about myself. I've found I've had to unlearn as much from these relationships as I've learned though.

Rather than focus on finding a mate and having children, I'm going to:

*Stay healthy so I don't have to have someone else take care of me. I know that I can't predict the future, but the elderly people in my family on both sides live long and stay functional. Besides, I've taken care of so many sick friends over the last few years, so I know that energy will come back if needed.

*Build my wealth so I won't need external financial support from a mate (Not that I've ever gotten this before, but that's another post). Seek partners, funders and donors for this purpose.

*Contribute to my community so I have a legacy that doesn't depend on how my biological children turn out.

All of these feel like more enjoyable and fruitful pursuits than romance, which is dependent in large part on the development and capacity of only one other person.

I think a lot of women have made this choice, and are dismissed as bitter. It actually feels amazing to consciously redirect my energy this way.

Chick sent me a nude with her boobs blurred out...what was the point? I appreciate the gesture, but I could have looked on your IG or FB for a picture.

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So...I'm learning Python the hard way. Actually its not really that hard. Its kind of easy. The only thing is that I'm trying to focus on the concepts and not the language. I am learning the language, but I've come to an understanding that the language is the easy part. If you learn the concepts behind the language, you can learn basically any programming language you want to.

I had a bit of a breakthrough in therapy. Its caused me to focus less anger and frustration towards my mother-in-law. I am pretty indifferent to her. Sure I still roll my eyes, and sometimes I tire of running up and down the stairs for some minor thing, but its keep me in a sane place. And that gives me time to focus on the things I want to focus on.

I'm still struggling with my ADD. Trying to nail down a daily plan and stick with it. Trying to make sure things don't fall through the cracks. And, trying to take care of myself first...isn't always easy. But each day is a new day to start again. My therapist said I need to think more positive...so I am giving it a go. :)

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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

U lookin like my auntie up in here


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Dallas Cavericks LETS GO!!

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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

It looks real!!!!

And, its HILARIOUS!!!!

President Gives Absolutely NO F*cks Obama strikes again and you gotta love it!!!!

:(

on friday. lol.
it took 2 sittings and a whole lot of money (artist is amazing)

but i now have a piece that covers a stupid tat i got as a youngin and it stretches from my back to my shoulder

:)

From a tangential friend (friend of my brother) blind cc'ing me letting me know that he has broken up with his girlfriend. I wasn't even aware they were still dating.

Is the breakup announcement a thing?


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"Everyone has a plan until you punch them in the face. Then they don't have a plan anymore." (c) Mike Tyson

"what's a leader if he isn't reluctant"

got a BCC on an email describing all the drama in the relationship and why they broke up...

but I have never had an email announcement about a nigga breaking up with his GF.

Wtf...lol

on some "she and I aren't together anymore. if you want to know why, ask her"

basic jilted shit where he wanted the world to know she was at fault