my birthday is on christmas eve. it would always get lost in the holidays. i'd often get 1-for-2 presents ("it's for birthday and christmas!"), which was very disappointing when i was a kid. getting friends together for a proper party around that time was nearly impossible so i usually had to have my "birthday" celebration some time in the summer or fall. those parties always rang false to me so i stopped having them after the 2nd or 3rd one

i absolutely hated my birthday from ~22-32 years old. i guess that's still technically caring about it... my goal then was to try to sleep or self-medicate my way through it. i got pretty good at doing that. i don't hate it anymore but my preference is to have the day pass without incident and minimal acknowledgement of it. i'm more interested in being able to hang out with my family on christmas