not in love now but what struck out to me the most w/ my last love was complement. his exterior self mirrored my interior self (i can be quite dark/curmudgeonly if you let me) and i really felt understood in a way i hadn't before

but that's not really everything. if i love again i may not have that again and i don't think i'd be sad because i'd have something else that is unique to that person. plus more of my interior is on the exterior now. lol.