In the back of my mind I feel like there's a moment, somewhere in the undefinable future where I'm going to walk into my bed room, pull up the covers, lay next to a women I love, and let out the biggest, most exhausted sigh of my life, and I'll fall instantly asleep. No more chronic back pain, no more anxiety, no restlessness, just a beautiful peaceful sleep that will find me energized and excited to wake up.


....I sincerely hope this happens one day because I haven't wanted to get up in 14 years.


"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts..." -The Bard