i think it may have been the worst of my life. i've never gone from fine to blacking out from pain in such a short amount of time.

i was sick to my stomach and wasn't home. i had to call to be picked up and kept being sick. the hours that followed were HELL. i can't even articulate how painful it was. at one pt i passed out from the pain.

it was so painful that it was almost...fascinating? it was really amazing how your body can - at any time - completely turn on you and make you its bitch.

i woke up the next day and my muscles were so sore from tensing up that i felt bruised. i literally went to the bathroom to check for bruises - i could've sworn i was covered in them.

i haven't been right since. i wonder what's going on.