13161415, are you seeing somebody for this? Posted by rdhull, Wed May-31-17 09:35 PM
>... I dunno. > > > >::::::: Don't come in here. :::::::: > > > >I suppose it doesn't matter. Depression or not, all I can do >is deal with it. > >The only real "out" I see will take at least another 6 months. >That's a long time to >be floundering in the Lake of Despair. Two months in and it >feels like you're lost at sea. > > >The funny thing is, I opened up to people this time. Not to >bring them in... I don't bring people into this dark ass >realm. >But I was able to step out sometimes. Every time I did though, >it really turned out to be for naught. > >And now I don't know. I have to keep swimming toward land; >that much I know. >There is nothing and no one on that land. I know that much >too. >The thought of tarting completely from the ground up, totally >alone, after swimming so long is just... > >I don't know why I keep trying. I just do. > >Can a sense of duty and morality really be all that's keeping >me from saying fuck it and throwing myself into the depths? > >Maybe that's enough though.
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